Danger!!! Look over here!!!

I was being slander by a guy..
He talk sumthing bad of me to my bf!
and he persuade my bf to leave me~
How bad is this guy!!!!


Name- liew yao bang
age - 16
skul - shing chung !!
class - 4sc3
live - chemor

He envy of me and my bf 's love..
and he do suck dirty trick to let my bf leave me ..

BCz of him .. I have cry mnny nite !!
I have to do sumthing ..
I'm so angry now!!!

Get hurt

I have calm down myself and did the best to myself. U noe? wat is the feeling of hurt?wat is the feeling of sked..disspointment.and sked to everything.. I told myself dun think so much bt .. I lost control lst nite.

I slap myself ,beat.. and do watever thing i could be wake up from the suffering.. Bt .. I cant.I keep crying..and i dun noe wat i was doing... I call him .. for many many times.. bt ..wat he responed to me?He just ignore my call and I fell breathless .. I cant live without him ..i KEEP CALLING even i noe he wont ans mycall.. I keep crying even i noe he wont gv a damn on me.. I keep calling n callimg.. wish he will be heard my explain n my suffer..But, this is the 1st time, he ignore me.. He let me face the darkness myself.. Wat he promised me when we couple tat day., wat he promise me.. huh??Did he 4gt everything?did he really choose his fren? I dun noe. I dun wan this kind of thing happened..I have nobody now.. I alone now..

I sked n angry abt tat msg.. I feel afraid to him.. I feel afraid to my phun..I feel afraid to the ring.. I feel sked tat everything..I didn't noe wat I'm talking about..bt I noe I'm sad..I'm hurt.I..Am.. poor.. pity.. I ...dun noe y I'm crying..

While I saw the comment , I.. cnt stand ard.. I.. cry when i really cnt stand,, just one hours ago..I cnt stand.. I chat wih kelly bt i stil feel sad n sad.. I .. keep crying.. n crying,,I wan suicide .. I hope evrything will b fine.I .. dun noe.. I have no idea abt wat is going to me?

I start to sked of calling u .. U wont ans n i dun noe wat u r going to talk to me.. I.. really feel sad .. n y our relationship bcum like this..I just wan u to be more perfect and I wan sure my future will be more hapi .. so i force u to do this. n do tat.. bt..I found tat.. I was wrong..

We r different type of ppl.. we..nt match rite? Bt..After i told myself abt it.. I will keep crying.. I alw cry n cry ..I'm useless.. I cnt contrl myslef now..

eveything is out of control.. everything is chaging.. n me.. is standing under the sun.. the sun keep buring on me.. I keep suffer.. I keep suffer!!!

I must be clam .. I SHOULD BE CALM!! I must ... nt tired .I should go for the war.. The phun..I din expect ..even ans a call .. I will affraid like now.. I dun wan .. I dun wan this thing happened..I wan go to last time.. I wan form3.. I dun wan couple anymore..I sked .. I gt hurt.. I .. painful n dying..

Y u do it to me?Y??U have forget ur promise and leave me alone..N u not enough, U go fs n comment me ..Tat thing is too hurt .. U din think of me.. U ignore me..U did bad to me.. I hate u ..I really hate u.. Bt,,i love u too .. I did!!I did!!!

真正爱你的男人

1. 真正爱你的男人，一下子说不出真正爱你的理由，只知道自己顾不上注意别人。　
　　
2．真正爱你的男人，其实总惹你生气，你却发觉不了他到底做错了什么。
　　
3．真正爱你的男人，很少当面赞美你，可是心里肯定你是他最棒的。
　　
4．真正爱你的男人，会在你忘记回复他短信时狠狠地说你一顿。
　　
5．真正爱你的男人，只可能在你一个人的面前流眼泪，当你触摸到他时，也触摸到了那颗只为你跳动的心。
　　
6．真正爱你的男人，会默默地记住你不经意说过的话，在某时某刻重复它们。
　　
7．真正爱你的男人，不会轻易做出承诺，因为他想让自己成为你心中说话最算话的男子汉，只想给你最可靠最安全的幸福。
　　
8．真正爱你的男人，总告诉你不要胡思乱想，因为其实他在为你们谋划着最美丽真实的未来。同时让你无忧无虑地等待他要给你的惊喜。
　　
9．真正爱你的男人，可能不像你一样清楚地记得某些纪念日，他觉得爱你是每时每刻的，并不是靠这几天简单的日子。
　　
10．真正爱你的男人，不会轻易对你当面说“我爱你”，因为他为你做过的每件事都已经这么说了。除非在非常时刻，为了不让你无端地误解他。
　　
11．真正爱你的男人，总觉得有些话只说一遍就够了，因为你已经了解他的心。说得多了，他会觉得不珍贵。
　　
12．真正爱你的男人，如果他去机场接你，不会像你期望的那样捧着玫瑰大声叫“亲爱的”，只是自然地提过你的行李，然后想用眼睛抱紧你似的心疼地说，怎么瘦得像豆芽菜了？
　　
13．真正爱你的男人，当你发脾气时，只会不做声地听你把火发完，然后慢慢地说，你明天有课吗？早点睡吧。
　　
14．真正爱你的男人，不懂当你生气挂掉电话后应该立即打来，过了若干小时后会发条短信问你消气了没有？如果你质问他为何这么久才打来，他会理直气壮的说，你生气时我的解释一定没有用，等你的火消了，我的解释才有效果。
　　
15．真正爱你的男人，总是叫你小姑娘，可是每次他做什么重大的决定，却总想先听听你的建议。
　　
16．真正爱你的男人，不喜欢玩具小毛熊，却一直把你送他的小熊放在床头。　
　　
17．真正爱你的男人，当和你发生争执时，总是控制不了地先妥协，先承认“我错了”，过后发来短信以“神经病”开头，以“宝贝”结尾。事实上你也清楚，这次是你有点无理取闹。　
　　
18．真正爱你的男人，很想很想你时，也会买玫瑰送你，傻傻地等着你，却不知道自己捧的是月季。没关系，他的心里送的是玫瑰。
　　
19．真正爱你的男人，都不甜，但是他的吻能传递他嘴巴所有的热情。
　　
20．真正爱你的男人，当听到你对他讲很“酸”的话时，他反而会装得很正经，其实心里很甜很甜。
　　
21．真正爱你的男人，如果不能经常见到你，他会让自己忙碌起来，为了不去想你，因为他知道一想你将会一发不可收拾．．

22.真正爱你的男人.不会因为朋友说的几句话就放弃你们的所有。他会尽办法在从中得到平衡。

23.真正爱你的男人，不会让你掉泪。反而，他会在你生气得说分手的时候，想办法改变自己，让你看到他的好。

24. 真正爱你的男人，不会对你动手动脚，因为他连生起你都舍不得，怎么可能打你？

我以为我放得下你。。原来我还是那么懦弱。。做不到。。因为我爱你，比我想象中还要爱。。好恨老天这么作弄人，在我觉得有希望的那刻，却把你带走。。我宁愿眼睁睁看见你跟着别的女人，我都不想你走。。我好舍不得你。。好怕见不到你。。可是在我决定振作的时候，你却让我感觉到你在难过。。我好想替你分担，可是你却把所有的不开心，藏在心里。。我不想看见你难过因为我会更难过。。没有你的日子，接下来我该怎么过。。我才发现，现在过的日子很没意义。。我发现没有你，我什么都做不好。。我好失败。。你呢？会过得很好吗？答应我，一起加油好吗？你不是那么容易就被打倒的c~知道吗？加油加油！你的未来是美好的。。我相信。。我会每天祈祷着你过得很好。。而我。。选择站在原点，继续爱你。。随时等着你累的时候，回来找我。。我等你~

Friday

When i was in the tt class.. I take his phun for sent sum photo to my fren. I think , If not I take his phun , I will never knew the secret tat hiding between he and his fren .
I was thinking of him on the way I backed home .. and the msg too . Tat msg is clearly explain wat I did.Hmm.. tat contain .. Is meaningful.. I read it 3 times and
I realize and get wat I should do! Thus... start from now. I will stay away from him .. For last time, when i take my dad's phun .. I wil automatcally phun to him and talk sumthing nonences..Just bcz of I stil love him and can't put him down .

Last time , when I write this blog ..I was expecting that u will view and realize wat I talking about . But for now.. I wil write for myself.. Nt for u anymore ..
I 'm deleted all our photo .. the sweet memory between u and me. But, sum of those memory will keep in our hearth. After sum days. We recall and think back . we miss the time.. we hav a lot of fun thr.. rite?
Lolx.. now.. we just fren . nt best fren , nt gud fren...Just ordinary and simple fren .. I dun wan heard anymore from ur fren .. I hate my classmate!!!
I just phun u and I feel tat I was wrong!I.. even expect u will help me buy tat thing. Stupid hor? So.. I hiding myself in my bedroom and strated thinking. U r nt my whom, U will nt do anything to me again. Me.. I will nt expect anyhting again.ok?I will nt disturb anymore ..

Finally

Just backed from skul , Tired..
Today , I had experienced many thing in skul .. My face sensitive to the coromic .. I was suffer in skul today . But, He just lie on the desk and keep slepping. Nvm .. I .. feel tat , he wasn't love me anymore.. He go home and leave me alone in skul ... Hmmm.... Although I'm sad , but I have to make sum right decision .. I dun wan couple anymore.. Watever .... I just dun wan couple with him anymore..
I have to do it cruelly to myself.. I dun wan ... dun wan .. When I feel lonely , I go read book .. When i feel sad at night.. I ignore it and just slepping.. I have put down when tat moment u leave me in skul..
I noe this time fight is nt simple like last time.. I noe.. and realize u dun love me anymore.. hmm.. smile alw to everyone....
U r cant gv me hapi and I can't count on u .. U .. stupid.. poor and .. lots of bad thing also can find on ur body .. I never seem a gf who gv the bf money to return money to others.. How useless this guy.. A boy use women's money is the most useless and cheap !! He.. i should not be trust anymore.. I should not!!
so.. I putted down u .. I wont miss u anymore.. really.. wont ...

im such a useless guy..

yup...im useless..im weak in studies..im poor...im not handsome as others..so?if u all think tat is a prob...then i can tell all of u..u all...foolish..noob...as a boy...must b handsome?omg...wat la...nonsence..if u got 2 bf...1 very handsome..rich..smart in studies..but got many gf..juz treat u as his toys..another one...not handsome...poor....n stupid..but treat u gud..juz love u oni..then u will hw?i think many ppl will prefer choose the rich one rite?of coz...tis is wat girl should be..maybe..im not worth for u to love...but...u r worth 4 me to love..i dunoe how to say..but i juz wan to love u...i promise u i will study hard..but i noe i cnt do it..bcz im really stupid..but i aso will try my beat....to prove to u tat im love...i will do watever thing u wan me to do...tis is juz an easy job..i duno how to make myself handsome actually..tis one i duno how...if u really think tat im not handsome..so u leave me n choose others...speechless
i will go for hip-hop dance..will eat less..wil make myself more bright...mayb tis is wat u wan..nvm i will do..
u noe?y i prefer dance?coz u.......im so hurt...when u say im useless..not handsome...poor...mayb many of ur frens say like tat..but nvm..i will keep all of it in my heart n sad myself...i can come over it...dun worry...im tough guy...ya...

The teacher day ...

The day in skul , we had taken down many photo ... Hmm... nice lorh ..





Me and Yoke chin ..

The most beauty gals in form 4 ...

she is same class with me ..

A responsible gal...














mE and my best fren ~~
kelly yew..
A such nervous gal ...
Beauty too ... hehex..
Cute horh ??




PS...(It's time to go to mask ..
dark circle is too serius . XP)

Taken in my skul hall , 27th/ june 2009

Today..Happy teacher day

Today is Saturday. Happy teacher day! This morning, my school had performance to celebrate the teacher 's day.Good show ?? I dun think so .. All dancer is bad and all performance is worst than their senior .
First, tat is the most lame period.Tat's - giving speech . Oh my god!! The most hard time . Then , It is the 'fire alarm training' . Some fireman came our skul to teach us how to use the fire extinguisher when the fire is happened. Tat is a very hot and tropical sun let us felt hot and me too..They students were stand by in the field and waiting for the fireman start . most of boys stand straightly to watch the fireman set an example .gals are hided under The boys. And me and my friend joined the group of my classmate.They are boys, and him.. inside too.. The sun is directly burn my face.. Painful eerh ... I saw a scene that let me felt sad again.. My fren asked him to be her shelter to block the sun burning . And he willing too.. Lolx ..Wat the fucking thing let me fekt sad?? Impossible !! i MUST BE CRAZY !!!! I stand at the back of them .. Nobody be shelter for me .. I move down my head and looking other side.. ' Tat is not my business ' I told myself again n again ....
Then, we walked into the hall agian .. The show is began. Lots of them was happy and joy . For me , I was down but laugh with them too . Nobody was knew, Iwas down .. A boy, he was played a musical instrument . A good show he did . He plyed the famous song.. ' tong hua' , Fairly tales.. While he played this, I .. cant stand already.. I cry bcz I rmb the time u sang this song to me... But now tat is just a past tense for me .. A very classic and lovely song..rite? A.. song tat let me fall down ..
The performance dismiss .It is the time back home . I fear this time ... As usual .. I walked alone .. I felt lonely .. He was walked with a gang of his friend. Other side, I'm alone.. Tears in my eye again.. I told myself again.. Tat is nth .. nvm.. And my stomach starts to pain again ..
Hooo~~~ Home is the shelter most warm and save.. I prefer than stay at home ..I hug my pillow and calm down myself.. I can't cry bcz of him ..I have to 4gt this bad guy.. I must...
3days ... we had broke 3 days..MJ was died on 25th june.. Our love is dead too .. Start from tat day .. We.. Nt! is Me and him nt fren again .. haha... starting cry again.. Without u , the curve of smile nt smooth again.. I tot myself I can handle my life very well .. But, My hand will automatically raise up the phun and find something to talk to him ... I wil cry everytime I miss u ... Poor me~!!!
I have expect u will nt talk properly to me .But I stil phun to u... Y I'm so stupid!? Y I will cry after phun u ? Y?! Who the one can ans my ques..I tried to find sum topic and encourage myself to chat with u .But u just talk brooishly to me.. U even ask me to dun disturb u and blame me so annoying ..
Orh ! Get it .. I get the means.. Hmm.. Get it ~~ Hmm... No disturb ...No call ..no ..no... I will nt call u again .. Sry for disturbing.. I apology to u ..
Finally ,I have made a rite decision .. See.. I'm rite.. I choose to leave u .. I finally get rid of ur life .. Hmm.. gud.. Everything will be fine for me.. I will try to 4gt u !! Nope!!! I 'm forgetting u .. Yea.. forgettin..I'm forgetting everything.. I'm deleting everything.I'm erasing everthing . I will !! And I 'm doing right now.
Eeerh .... Stomachache again.. My eye must be pain tmr.. I must cry again . I'm useless.. I noe I cant 4gt u... Not everything is such simple.. Tat memories carve in my heart , is cant erase ... But, I stil will try to forget ..
Forget who is chau kai loon ...4gt who is him.. how is him.. Wat he did.. Wat is his num..And.. I will nt expect and dream again . I wil nt dream tat I will be fine with u again.. This kind of skilly thing ! I will not do agian !! Okie? I will nt sad again.. Nth is worth of my tears.. I 'm a happy gal~~ Smile.. Smile ...

๒г๏кє ยק ... ฬє ђค๔ ๒๏гкєภ ยק

I felt cold and can't fall asleep when I lying on the bed. The sky is shouting and crying .. Light and rain .. let me feel more lonely .. lonely .. is a feeling that let ppl cry , exhausted , and .. fear.
Just now , I called u gv me back the book which i borrow from my fren. I ask u put it on the table then I take it tmr.But u dun wan, U wan .. I take it myself . I was stomachache seriusly and crying all the time.. I dun noe wat I was doing just now . tears shed down uncontrolly.. body shivery and my hand hold tightly ..I sked ..I fear..I feel I going to 'slp'... I was crying without sound. Nobody noe I was crying Nobody noe ...I'm sad.. Nobody ..
A dark night .and it is drizzling . I look at outside , I recall wat had happened just now .. Tat sound from the phun .. Tat is a sound tat I were love .. Tat was a sound , I were miss .. Tat was a cruel sound from a cruel mouth . Tat.. sentence wat u said.. hurt me so much .. I .. I... I did wonder to call u .. but.. I had made a wrong decision .. I stil rmb wat u said just now.. Like music .. swimming around of me..
I try hard to find out more abt us .. From we knew .. den we r fren.. den.. best fren.. den.. kei gog.. den bf .. den .. ex-bf ..
All thing happened in 11 months .. This day .. 25th june ..All thing had done.. ended.. finished...Tat's nth for me.. Really nth ?? I ask myself many times and force myself to stop cry..I try to forget wat u had promise to me and done for me .. I try to forget wat u talk to me either the gud word or bad word.. I try to forget ..
It is hard to forget everything.. I'm not a teacher who can call the duty's person go to eraser the blackboard. I'm not! Tat memories between and belong to us is can't erase ...
U did too much for me.. but U also take it away from now .. My eye swallon or pain .. My head is cry til headache.. I'm can't slp .. My brain is full of u .. My eye is obtain tears everytimes.. My mood is down n down now... watever how was me..U not care anymore.. Ur caring is useless to me .. And now... When I miss u.. My head will look down , I will silence .. I will quiet.. bcz.. this time.. this moment .. I wanna cry .. I'm control my feeling ..
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Today in skul, I.. sat on my seat.. I suddenly turn back and shock .. I stil tot tat u will cum to my seat .. While I look carefully , Tat's not u .. Tat guy is Ju Shen , He came for borrow the stepper.. Then.. I bowl down my head..and told them I'm tired ..need rest more...I ... I... have told everyone we are broke up.. They seem like sumbody else.. laugh at me.. sum silly guy will keep on talking abt u.. I really wanna slap her when she talk u .. hah... Izit u feel funny on other's wound?
ahahhhh... I feel funny too... (lame)
The bell rang at the mm's period. It signal it is the time we back home. Everybody is happi and excited .They can bek home . But.I hope tat the skul will not off... I sked tat feel ,I walk alone to home. I feel the lonely when I walk alone and nobody stand bside me when everybody was walking out.I quickly walk and meet Yen Ching. we chat a while and her fren is beside her. She has her fren and leave me alone. Last time , when I out from thr, I have u, but .. now.. I just realize that I have not buddy beside me..
Hahah... I'm lonely now. .. Hiaz... Haiz... I tell myself many times .. I have to used to live with myself.. I can live very well without u . But.. I can't .. I ..can't.. Maybe I nid sum times to learn bek .. how to take care my self...
The radio is broadcasting the song ..' U r not alone' dAD BESIDE ME .. I can't release my mood now.. I wan cry agian ..Mayb I can more strong.. Mayb I will cure after sumtimes.. Mayb I will nt sked of lonely .. Mayb I wil not cry ...mayb I will nt miss u after sumdays.Mayb I wil hav a guy who better than u... Mayb.. ..A lots of mayb...mayb.. I will happy again .. Mayb I no nid preted anymore.. Mayb.. I wil not mis u anymore.. Mayb...I will never sked at night.. Myab .. My heart wil nt pain again.. Mayb .. I.....................I nt love u anymore... Mayb... Mayb...
I'm tired already.... For now.. I.. will nt cry for u .. I .. return everything to u .And,, I pass my life with happy .. This is wat I promise to myself.. I can't cry from now.. I will smile everytimes I face to others.. I.. promise and force myself do it.. I force myself not to take the phun .. It wil ler me call u.. I cant call u!! I have to slp .. I hav to hide myself in bedroom ..I..can't cry.. My eye is too pain.. Painfull.. Head.. stomach .. and body .. even hearth and pain so..
Smile and live with myself.. Smile will take gud luck for everyone ,rite? I have to smile.. Hahahah.... Zhiying... smile from now..+)....

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