Finally

Just backed from skul , Tired..
Today , I had experienced many thing in skul .. My face sensitive to the coromic .. I was suffer in skul today . But, He just lie on the desk and keep slepping. Nvm .. I .. feel tat , he wasn't love me anymore.. He go home and leave me alone in skul ... Hmmm.... Although I'm sad , but I have to make sum right decision .. I dun wan couple anymore.. Watever .... I just dun wan couple with him anymore..
I have to do it cruelly to myself.. I dun wan ... dun wan .. When I feel lonely , I go read book .. When i feel sad at night.. I ignore it and just slepping.. I have put down when tat moment u leave me in skul..
I noe this time fight is nt simple like last time.. I noe.. and realize u dun love me anymore.. hmm.. smile alw to everyone....
U r cant gv me hapi and I can't count on u .. U .. stupid.. poor and .. lots of bad thing also can find on ur body .. I never seem a gf who gv the bf money to return money to others.. How useless this guy.. A boy use women's money is the most useless and cheap !! He.. i should not be trust anymore.. I should not!!
so.. I putted down u .. I wont miss u anymore.. really.. wont ...

im such a useless guy..

yup...im useless..im weak in studies..im poor...im not handsome as others..so?if u all think tat is a prob...then i can tell all of u..u all...foolish..noob...as a boy...must b handsome?omg...wat la...nonsence..if u got 2 bf...1 very handsome..rich..smart in studies..but got many gf..juz treat u as his toys..another one...not handsome...poor....n stupid..but treat u gud..juz love u oni..then u will hw?i think many ppl will prefer choose the rich one rite?of coz...tis is wat girl should be..maybe..im not worth for u to love...but...u r worth 4 me to love..i dunoe how to say..but i juz wan to love u...i promise u i will study hard..but i noe i cnt do it..bcz im really stupid..but i aso will try my beat....to prove to u tat im love...i will do watever thing u wan me to do...tis is juz an easy job..i duno how to make myself handsome actually..tis one i duno how...if u really think tat im not handsome..so u leave me n choose others...speechless
i will go for hip-hop dance..will eat less..wil make myself more bright...mayb tis is wat u wan..nvm i will do..
u noe?y i prefer dance?coz u.......im so hurt...when u say im useless..not handsome...poor...mayb many of ur frens say like tat..but nvm..i will keep all of it in my heart n sad myself...i can come over it...dun worry...im tough guy...ya...

The teacher day ...

The day in skul , we had taken down many photo ... Hmm... nice lorh ..





Me and Yoke chin ..

The most beauty gals in form 4 ...

she is same class with me ..

A responsible gal...














mE and my best fren ~~
kelly yew..
A such nervous gal ...
Beauty too ... hehex..
Cute horh ??




PS...(It's time to go to mask ..
dark circle is too serius . XP)

Taken in my skul hall , 27th/ june 2009

Today..Happy teacher day

Today is Saturday. Happy teacher day! This morning, my school had performance to celebrate the teacher 's day.Good show ?? I dun think so .. All dancer is bad and all performance is worst than their senior .
First, tat is the most lame period.Tat's - giving speech . Oh my god!! The most hard time . Then , It is the 'fire alarm training' . Some fireman came our skul to teach us how to use the fire extinguisher when the fire is happened. Tat is a very hot and tropical sun let us felt hot and me too..They students were stand by in the field and waiting for the fireman start . most of boys stand straightly to watch the fireman set an example .gals are hided under The boys. And me and my friend joined the group of my classmate.They are boys, and him.. inside too.. The sun is directly burn my face.. Painful eerh ... I saw a scene that let me felt sad again.. My fren asked him to be her shelter to block the sun burning . And he willing too.. Lolx ..Wat the fucking thing let me fekt sad?? Impossible !! i MUST BE CRAZY !!!! I stand at the back of them .. Nobody be shelter for me .. I move down my head and looking other side.. ' Tat is not my business ' I told myself again n again ....
Then, we walked into the hall agian .. The show is began. Lots of them was happy and joy . For me , I was down but laugh with them too . Nobody was knew, Iwas down .. A boy, he was played a musical instrument . A good show he did . He plyed the famous song.. ' tong hua' , Fairly tales.. While he played this, I .. cant stand already.. I cry bcz I rmb the time u sang this song to me... But now tat is just a past tense for me .. A very classic and lovely song..rite? A.. song tat let me fall down ..
The performance dismiss .It is the time back home . I fear this time ... As usual .. I walked alone .. I felt lonely .. He was walked with a gang of his friend. Other side, I'm alone.. Tears in my eye again.. I told myself again.. Tat is nth .. nvm.. And my stomach starts to pain again ..
Hooo~~~ Home is the shelter most warm and save.. I prefer than stay at home ..I hug my pillow and calm down myself.. I can't cry bcz of him ..I have to 4gt this bad guy.. I must...
3days ... we had broke 3 days..MJ was died on 25th june.. Our love is dead too .. Start from tat day .. We.. Nt! is Me and him nt fren again .. haha... starting cry again.. Without u , the curve of smile nt smooth again.. I tot myself I can handle my life very well .. But, My hand will automatically raise up the phun and find something to talk to him ... I wil cry everytime I miss u ... Poor me~!!!
I have expect u will nt talk properly to me .But I stil phun to u... Y I'm so stupid!? Y I will cry after phun u ? Y?! Who the one can ans my ques..I tried to find sum topic and encourage myself to chat with u .But u just talk brooishly to me.. U even ask me to dun disturb u and blame me so annoying ..
Orh ! Get it .. I get the means.. Hmm.. Get it ~~ Hmm... No disturb ...No call ..no ..no... I will nt call u again .. Sry for disturbing.. I apology to u ..
Finally ,I have made a rite decision .. See.. I'm rite.. I choose to leave u .. I finally get rid of ur life .. Hmm.. gud.. Everything will be fine for me.. I will try to 4gt u !! Nope!!! I 'm forgetting u .. Yea.. forgettin..I'm forgetting everything.. I'm deleting everything.I'm erasing everthing . I will !! And I 'm doing right now.
Eeerh .... Stomachache again.. My eye must be pain tmr.. I must cry again . I'm useless.. I noe I cant 4gt u... Not everything is such simple.. Tat memories carve in my heart , is cant erase ... But, I stil will try to forget ..
Forget who is chau kai loon ...4gt who is him.. how is him.. Wat he did.. Wat is his num..And.. I will nt expect and dream again . I wil nt dream tat I will be fine with u again.. This kind of skilly thing ! I will not do agian !! Okie? I will nt sad again.. Nth is worth of my tears.. I 'm a happy gal~~ Smile.. Smile ...

๒г๏кє ยק ... ฬє ђค๔ ๒๏гкєภ ยק

I felt cold and can't fall asleep when I lying on the bed. The sky is shouting and crying .. Light and rain .. let me feel more lonely .. lonely .. is a feeling that let ppl cry , exhausted , and .. fear.
Just now , I called u gv me back the book which i borrow from my fren. I ask u put it on the table then I take it tmr.But u dun wan, U wan .. I take it myself . I was stomachache seriusly and crying all the time.. I dun noe wat I was doing just now . tears shed down uncontrolly.. body shivery and my hand hold tightly ..I sked ..I fear..I feel I going to 'slp'... I was crying without sound. Nobody noe I was crying Nobody noe ...I'm sad.. Nobody ..
A dark night .and it is drizzling . I look at outside , I recall wat had happened just now .. Tat sound from the phun .. Tat is a sound tat I were love .. Tat was a sound , I were miss .. Tat was a cruel sound from a cruel mouth . Tat.. sentence wat u said.. hurt me so much .. I .. I... I did wonder to call u .. but.. I had made a wrong decision .. I stil rmb wat u said just now.. Like music .. swimming around of me..
I try hard to find out more abt us .. From we knew .. den we r fren.. den.. best fren.. den.. kei gog.. den bf .. den .. ex-bf ..
All thing happened in 11 months .. This day .. 25th june ..All thing had done.. ended.. finished...Tat's nth for me.. Really nth ?? I ask myself many times and force myself to stop cry..I try to forget wat u had promise to me and done for me .. I try to forget wat u talk to me either the gud word or bad word.. I try to forget ..
It is hard to forget everything.. I'm not a teacher who can call the duty's person go to eraser the blackboard. I'm not! Tat memories between and belong to us is can't erase ...
U did too much for me.. but U also take it away from now .. My eye swallon or pain .. My head is cry til headache.. I'm can't slp .. My brain is full of u .. My eye is obtain tears everytimes.. My mood is down n down now... watever how was me..U not care anymore.. Ur caring is useless to me .. And now... When I miss u.. My head will look down , I will silence .. I will quiet.. bcz.. this time.. this moment .. I wanna cry .. I'm control my feeling ..
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Today in skul, I.. sat on my seat.. I suddenly turn back and shock .. I stil tot tat u will cum to my seat .. While I look carefully , Tat's not u .. Tat guy is Ju Shen , He came for borrow the stepper.. Then.. I bowl down my head..and told them I'm tired ..need rest more...I ... I... have told everyone we are broke up.. They seem like sumbody else.. laugh at me.. sum silly guy will keep on talking abt u.. I really wanna slap her when she talk u .. hah... Izit u feel funny on other's wound?
ahahhhh... I feel funny too... (lame)
The bell rang at the mm's period. It signal it is the time we back home. Everybody is happi and excited .They can bek home . But.I hope tat the skul will not off... I sked tat feel ,I walk alone to home. I feel the lonely when I walk alone and nobody stand bside me when everybody was walking out.I quickly walk and meet Yen Ching. we chat a while and her fren is beside her. She has her fren and leave me alone. Last time , when I out from thr, I have u, but .. now.. I just realize that I have not buddy beside me..
Hahah... I'm lonely now. .. Hiaz... Haiz... I tell myself many times .. I have to used to live with myself.. I can live very well without u . But.. I can't .. I ..can't.. Maybe I nid sum times to learn bek .. how to take care my self...
The radio is broadcasting the song ..' U r not alone' dAD BESIDE ME .. I can't release my mood now.. I wan cry agian ..Mayb I can more strong.. Mayb I will cure after sumtimes.. Mayb I will nt sked of lonely .. Mayb I wil not cry ...mayb I will nt miss u after sumdays.Mayb I wil hav a guy who better than u... Mayb.. ..A lots of mayb...mayb.. I will happy again .. Mayb I no nid preted anymore.. Mayb.. I wil not mis u anymore.. Mayb...I will never sked at night.. Myab .. My heart wil nt pain again.. Mayb .. I.....................I nt love u anymore... Mayb... Mayb...
I'm tired already.... For now.. I.. will nt cry for u .. I .. return everything to u .And,, I pass my life with happy .. This is wat I promise to myself.. I can't cry from now.. I will smile everytimes I face to others.. I.. promise and force myself do it.. I force myself not to take the phun .. It wil ler me call u.. I cant call u!! I have to slp .. I hav to hide myself in bedroom ..I..can't cry.. My eye is too pain.. Painfull.. Head.. stomach .. and body .. even hearth and pain so..
Smile and live with myself.. Smile will take gud luck for everyone ,rite? I have to smile.. Hahahah.... Zhiying... smile from now..+)....

My dress up

My dress up , just upload for nothing ...

A sweet memory in parade..

Ken

A such responsible guy and full of lovely guy ,

A GUY who love my so much ,

A guy who b with me when i was vomic

A guy who care me when i'm lonely ,

A guy who never let me get hurt ..

A guy , who sayang me more than himself,

I LOVE U FOREVER

aT THE END of the date

I felt unwell when we in the cinema n watched the 'night at museum 2' ,

the suck cinema , when the movie was showing ,

it silence suddenly , no sound , only the picture ..

All of us was shock and sum of the audience go complain .

We laugh , talking back of the parade cinema ..

but ,

I felt something unright in my stomach ..

Like sumthing can't digest and it just 'swimming' around in my stomach ..

I had remember!!

I ate the spicy ' chicken curry mee' in kopitian ...

I never eat such spicy thing b4 it ...

Mayb my body weaker than lst time ..

I vomic in the toilet .

I can't ... stand of it.. so we quickly ride bus and backed home ..

Do u think that ,

The unluckly thing just happened like this..

I vomic again in the bus ...

He is bside me and he was too worry about me ..

Thanks for ur help , ken ..

Without u , I tot I will cry in the bus..

Ur shoulder is warm , I love it~~

i love u too much

I can't live without u ,

The memory between u and me ,

I can't erase .

Just like a ocean ,

I'm the fish , u R THE water .

U will take care of me everytime,

U will noe my happiness, sadness and everything about me

I will share with u watever my thing .

I .. am .. yours ...

The Day go Parade .. Me and ken

The day we go parade .. 12/6 we have a sweet memory at thr ..

Zhi Ying

Take in merry brown (located in ipoh parade)

I just take the phun n keep taking photo ..

ignore surrounding , including hi m...

I noe lots of ppl looking at me ..

Bt I ignore it ...

Jz wan take down my pretty looks

Did u see my betterfly teeth , cute anot ?



my dentist ask me to remove it , but i persist in hold it ..



bcz it is the gift tat god gv me ..



And i will take it til my end life,,



just like,



I will take him .. forever....



NOW , MY BOIBOI HELp ME TAKE this ..




wHEN i MISS him , I will act like this..
cause ... I alw act like this
either in skul n home ...

I catched an accident

I catch an accident just now. Don't worry , it is just a small case . Lolx, ' small case' is exactly can decribe this incident. When I drove , I was chatting with my yougster sis who sit behind me. There was a block not far from us , I need to turn left and go my fren's house. AT this moment, I din mention tat block and straight turn my motor . 'Pang' I lost contorl my motor and I fall down from motor .. My sis too . We spread out on the road . My leg felt painful and hand is unability to raise up.But I have to wake up and straighten my motor . My sis was stand up and stand beside me. Fortuannaly , SHE is fine, no wound n not hurt . But me , whole body felt like wanna ' off down' it is too pain for me. espwcially my leg.
After I rode agian my motor, I bcum more carefully . I gave my book to my fren wheli reach her house and go to supermarket to meet ken . He knew I was catch accident. He is worry about me. He help me to walk .. It is too sweet. My sis is worry me too ..
Although I feel sleeply.. but.. stil wan record my mood right now..