XXX... LISTEN ... I gotta my own my way

hey .. listen


I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try
somehow the plan Is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me You'll be ok...
I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find our place in thisWorld someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up And I watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've Gotta do what's best for me You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find our place in thisWorld someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own away


Troy What about us? What about everything we've been through?

Gabriella What about trust?

Troy You know I never wanted to trust you

Gabriella And what about me?

Troy What am I supposed to do?

Gabriella I gotta leave but I'll miss you

Troy I'll miss you

Gabriella SoI've got to move on and be who I am

Troy Why do you have to go?

Gabriella I just don't belong hereI hope you understand

Troy: Gabriella We might find our place in thisWorld someday But at least for now

Troy I want you to stay

Gabriella I gotta go my own wayI've got to move on and be who I am

TroyWhat about us?

Gabriella I just don't belong hereI hope you understand

Troy I'll try to understand

Gabriella We might find our place in thisWorld someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

hmm... chatting with boon yong

Zhï ¥ïñg says:
quite nt gud
...
jz nw.. i heard a news
abt
....
hmm...
hmm...
ken is chasing sumone...


·#·&·$#BEBEBE bAвY ☠ saK[[rA miZZ ﾌ eЧ says:
hmmm


Zhï ¥ïñg says:
...
lolx
...
·#·&·$#BEBEBE bAвY ☠ saK[[rA miZZ ﾌ eЧ says:
yao diM ?


Zhï ¥ïñg says:
hmm.. dun noe oorh..jz sudden like
cold water
wash my body
...
very cold

·#·&·$#BEBEBE bAвY ☠ saK[[rA miZZ ﾌ eЧ says:
er
tis


Zhï ¥ïñg says:
haiz..


·#·&·$#BEBEBE bAвY ☠ saK[[rA miZZ ﾌ eЧ says:
Non of ur business ard


Zhï ¥ïñg says:
ya lorh ..
hmm..
u r rite
haha
.......




Yaya ,,, boon yong.. u r rite.. It is non of my business.Yea..I told myself.. I have my life n he too..Of cz it is nt a prob to he have a new gf.. I should nt care it at all.. I just gossip .. lolx



I'm just concern abt my thing .My goal..the pilot.. N.. I dun care he wil regret after he leave me anot .. Tat is really a such noncense for me.. rite? zhiying

...



I'm strong.. yea... of cz... Lolx... Without ken .. zhiying is a new zhiying..



a confidence zhiying~ yea~~keep doing job well.. zhiying...



Tmr, u mayb wil sit with him,, lolx.. nth ,,, it is nth ... cruel.. n treat him as ur fren ..jz a normal fren ...



N,, jia hui .... is ut beloved.... ok ???



yea....



Thx.. boon yong,, ur 'non of ur business' is worth for me...



lolx

I'm bad gal

I'm bad gal .

Yea... Just now , I had a phun talk with jia hui. We shared our life experience to each others.He told me abt his skul . Lolx.. tat is funny. He said he r bad at Tum lui zai .. but, he doesnt noe,his voice can comfort my heart. He doesnt noe , I lv his sound even we r rarely to meet . But, his sound is very similiar to me. Just like, we r old fren .

I'm bad gal. I'm.. definately .. bad gal. I nt gud bcz I .. mayb just let others feel .Lolx.. this is my prob.. Mayb .. lolx..
He told me tat, he is very sayang me bt , other side, I nt at all.. I'm nt very sayang him at all.. Lolx.. How can i said.. lolx.. Yea... I think so .. But, I had done my best ...

sigh .....

Jia hui , I had do my best to called u in my time. I had do my best to on9 every nite even I'm facing my exam .I had done with my best . But , U told me tat I'm nt sayang u very much ,,, lolx.. I heard it.. I just.. speechless...

Speechless... I noe .. I'm nt gud gal now.. I realise now.. I dun noe b4 .. lolx.. Mayb it is my style .. Bad style ..

Nt very pleasure to hear it ...

Just fews hours ago, I found tat the memorize btw me n ken .Lolx.. I cried jor leh ~~~ T.T

Cry is nt for stil loving him .. tat is .. I just mourm for the dead love. Lolx.. Ihad putted down u eventually...

Haiz....

Bad gal~~ ....

Happy or sad.. ur choice

生命可以让你有１００个哭的理由，

但也可以让你有１０００个笑的理由，

不应该属于你的烦恼，就不要去想..

快乐其实很简单，

哭或笑，都由你选择...

Life can let u have 100 reason for sad

Life can also let u have 1000 reason for smile

The trouble which nt belong to u ,dun think it

Happy life is simple actually,

Smile or cry , ur choice ...

I dun noe wat is going on ??

Hey ..
I really dun noe wat is going on ??
He suddenly off .. n ..
haiz..
I really dun noe wat is happening ..

OMG~~

Jia hui is angry this time ..
I jz chat with fren ..n i knew it is late ..
But.. haiz..
I jz manage my blog ..
Tat's all .. nth more ...

Oh my god~~

I'm getting fat

OMG~~

It is sad for happening!!
I'm getting fat!! OMG~~
U noe..
I'm 50KG now~~ oh my god~~
I cnt imagine how fat am i!!
Oh my god!!
It is a nightmare for me!!
It is terrible !!
@@

I cnt let myself fat bek ! I wont!!
I wont!! OH my god!!
Y I taked the supper ??

I should on diet now!!
50 TO 43 kg ~
I wil !! ....

I wil ... 43 Kg.. my goal !
going to achieve it ...

Sep 27 .. nt a mood

Nt a mood today .
I feel tiredless . I dun noe this is cause by physical or mental. I have no idea!
I sked to go to skul bcz o have to meet him. Haiz.. U noe,haiz.. the past thing I dun wanna think anymore.

I chatted with my aunt who is back from singapora n she is rich jz now . I told her tat i wanna b a pilot.She agreed n we start to discuss abt it. She promise me she wil help me to gt the scholarship in singapora one .But,the 1st thing is ..I must get straight A's in SPM .

FULLED A's ??? Can I gt it ? The 1st time I think abt my future with seriusly .My aunt do gv me a lot of pressure .I promise her, I wil do m best !

OK!! If.. luckily, I really gt the scholarship from singapora one , den , wat wil b my future ? My aunt said , they wil send me to US for taking couse . I forgot wat the hell of the university name , bt .. it is seem like very fabulous. I can do it ??Yea!! I can do it..

The 1st thing I worry abt is Jia hui . He told me he dun wan bek to us n he wanna stay at malaysia. OMG~~ yea~~..Malaysia.. So, how is our future? izit.. I'm US n . he is in m'sia..

I dun noe .. Jz nt a mood .. moody...

Now, I wont gv a damn to them.I means ken n his fren . I'm serius. I jz treat everyone as my normal fren n I wont tel anymore my secret anymore in my skul execpt Yan . she is my sister ...

Mayb this wil protect me from gtting hurt . I should nt think too much. I made a lot of nighmares recently.I dream him everyday, tat hurt feel occurs everynite in my dream.I sked ,fear ... Omg..tat is nt the way ...

No ... it is nt !! I'm nt love him. No.. this type of stupid ,useless question ! I WONT THINK !!! FUck it off ! GET AWAY FROM MY MIND! U DID TROUBLE ME!! OMG~

Anyway,the most important thing is study n study n study .

Pilot!! YEA~~ pilot ... I'm coming now..

The others...I wont think n I wont waste my time on it...

Keep doing job better!! Working hard !! yea..
I feel my life energy agian...

Having a phun talk

Jz nw , Jia Hui called me . Lolx..

He is finished his exam today. He said he felt free n relax . Then, he called me bcz he as feeling bored . I talk with him with quite ... hard . lolx..

He told me his fren is plying football in class . Lolx !! Football ? quite .. over nomal.. lolx..
Then, i can heard lot of noisy ..especailly , tat sex shout sound .. lolx..

Tat is funny .. Freaking sound with freaking ppl ...

I cnt imagine how cum they cn ply football in class. Then, his fren was teasing him with shout beside him n hit the ball toward him .. funny ..

haiz..

Suddenly , I think bek my life. A period of time i also crazy like them .. but, it is funny too ..
Nw.. no longer the time wil bek , tat is jz a happy memory for me ..
I miss my fren . those crazy gang fren .. 2A1 ... 3A1 .. n nw.. 4sc3 ...

From happy , crazy , laughful n relax moment change to stressful , arugeing , n upset ... mood.
sigh ...

I sudden hope I stil is the childish kid.. A little gal without stress.. But, ken brought it far away from me..

Haiz.. exam is around the corner .. lolx..

Keep working hard. ... zhiying

Love

I was reading a well blog. He is a guy , n , he knew girl's heart very much . No wonder he has no girlfriend.

It is holiday now . I met jia hui twice . Lolx.. Suddenly flash back , every holiday , I wil hang out with him . Too. We promised each other, this holiday we wil go parade. Lolx.. Now, I have my new life n new bf. How abt u , ken ? Lolx..

Thankyou, ken . Thanks for reject me. Thank you for ur cruel . I'm thank with my faith. Because of u , I have a such gud bf now. he loves me very much, jz like u were ...

I wil think I'm going to sad n lonely sumtimes. But, it is nt really hard to lost u . Nope, it is nt lost .. it is leave. The best way of us . Lolx ...

I'm tired abt u . I'm mad of u . I means.. our relationship. How cum u cn ... haiz... nvm ...

Past ....

Lolx..

Hope we wil happy.. n hope.. my studies wil getting better !!!
Lolx...

23 Sep 2009

The second day we met . Me n Jia hui . He is a chatful n active guy . I love him so much .

Taken in Jusco ..

Although we cnt hv a movie n shopping with u quite boring. But, it is happy too...
lolx

The end ......

Fren for life

kElly yew - yan ..... (dA JIE)

dA JIE .. i'M SRY . I dissappointed u many times.I have no idea abt the apology n I dun noe how to said sry in front of u . I madded u ,, sry ...

Kelly , I think many of my fren also noe who is her. A cute gal lorh .. Called kelly. Although she doesnt likes this name, bt , kely is suitable to u . really. I promise,. i didnt lie to u ...

Kelly,u teach me many thing. Such as, how to face love , how to cruel . N .. u b with me whenever i fel sad , happy , angry n also excited. Lolx..U r important for me.

Dajie, I treat u as my sister.Our relationship nt normal as best fren. no.. u r my da jie.. really da jie..

I love u ...

Lolx.. it is too ... 'freeze' ...

Kelly , u told me nt going to find ken anymore. Forget this guy . N u scoled me , Y i stil wanna find him.. u said u wanna beat me bcz i 'm too fool n stupid!! Tat time msn .. I never forget how angry n sad r u .. n also the dissapoint..

Kelly, sry .. pls.. forgive my foolness..I promise u , I wil let u c i smile n laugh.I wont let u c I cry .. U said.. u dun wan c i cry anymore.. .. i NOE..

sRY .. I wil change.. n I wil let u c i smile.. okie ?

sry for let u worry abt....I wil nt goignt o let u worry abt me agian ..

i wil .. okie.. both of us.. nt sad anymore ..

N u. dun keep ur sadness in heart.Speak it out. ok ?

I wil support u jz like u support me. ... I must...

this world is match. we same class in kindergarden , n now , we same class togather.Many years has past.. we meet togather.. lolx.. it is.. lolx..

Promise me .. we must toward our relatinship to better n better . okie ??

lolx..

N..

we cnt aruge gah ... ok ??

hmm..

best fren forever . Frindship forever.. n.. family forever... okie ??

Lots ques... u cn stand anot ??lolx..

Zhi Yiing n his past tense

A week has past ... I dun noe u gt view my blog anot ..

watever ... It is useless...

I'm poor in express my feeling , improving my gramma ...

I was tt just now n had my breakfast with my fren . Queen ,she told me sumthing abt ken . she knews ken is loving yen ching n yen ching replaces me.. OMG~~

'Tat is nth to me.' I told myself. They seem like really close . I even cnt imagine how close r them.. Wat's wrong with me ? I stil care abt this guy ? HUH ? Am i a stupid ? Yea.. I'm fool !

Think twice . He was a part of my life , but it is past tense for now . I have my future with my new partner. I should nt jz care the 'first love ' .. Although this is hard to forget.

If u jz hold ur hand , u can jz gt little . Otherwise, u open ur hand , u cn receive more.

Yea.. It is rite.

I rmb tat moment tat we went for badmintoon. I asked u get away from me bcz u r smelling. Den , u this naughty boy.. u wripped ur sweats to my clothes,, den u smiled to me.. like a child.. like a kid.. It is ... sweet..

I said louderly.. ' sui yan ~~ yer~~~ hou sui arh ni~~' .... U stil smile like a kid.. Tat face stil shown keep in my mind . Actually , u r cute.. really a sor lou.. Bt it is nt belong to me anymore..

I lay on ur shoulder n call u .. ' lao gong.. u c... sharon's new phun.. u c .. u c.. yer~~ .. ' I start to 'teh ' u ... U answered like a adult. ' ya la ,ya la.. den u ignore me.. ' I keep on disturdb u ' laogon.. yer.. dun c this .. c thr.. aiyer.. ur lao po is pretties in this world rite ? ' ' ya la.. U r.. ' den u kiss my check ... lolx.. U r a adult.. so mature.. I lov it

We plyed badminton. U hitted the ball n it beat on my body . I pretend angry . I said..' heng!! U stand !! dun move!!! ' Den i hit the ball to ur body .. u smile.. I smile.. den u bully me again .. hit the ball to my body again ..den I ' yer~~~ har wo!! ' den i pretend angry again .. U cum beside me n hug me.. Said.. ' aiyo. dun like tat la.. ok . sek fan .. ' lox..u r the best medicine to let me cheer up .. n .. u also the one who can let me die.. u r the most efficient poison for me ..

I realizE u r important for me in ths world.. I wil forget u WITH also those sweet memories..

it is hard to do , though . I 'm trying..

Sry , ken .. thx ken.. I love u , ken ..

Tat song , 'our story is nt end yet' U said u love it. Bcz tat lyris is exactly wat u wanna said to me . I'm listening this song now. I noe hw helpless u r, I should more care abt u tat time .I should gv more warm to u , confidence, time , love , smile.. n nt the stressn pressure tat let u cnt breath . I shouldnt..

I noe how much u love me. Bt, it is past now. I noe. Tat promises, jz let it go , ok ?
ken , if u read this post.. rmb.. U r the best fren of me..
U must happy forever oorh ~~... cnt b sad.. n .. u can beat urself to achieve a flying result !! rite ?
U r smart . i noe.
U cnt give up .. try hard ... Zhi Ying . is alw b here for u ...
Ken, u must happy forever.
If nt, my tears n hurt is wasted .
All of us must happy nw~~ ken .. Thankyou. U let me feel hurt n love..
lolx...
cry is doesnt a deal . the important is ..I learn it. n i must keep it .. !! keep it...

Ken ,the most important special noun of my life. bt, now my life hav a new nouns.. I discover a new noun..Jia hui ..

Jia hui ,

If u love me.. plz dun hurt me...pls.. pls.. pls...

sem like i gt sumthing

Jen is sicked

I hope she is getting well...

I'm sick too

lovesick

lolx..

I'm useless...

many ppl angry abt me..

My head gt prob ,

My mind gt prob

My attitude gt prob..

All of them said I'm stupid

Y i wanna make myself cheap ?

Y stil wanna him ?

This is ....

Unknown ...

formulae..

PRESSURE = force over area ..

the bigger the area the smaller the pressure

the smaller the force the smaller the pressure

Am I un sumthing ?

I gt sumthing ?

yea..

Ken ...

no matter wat, U wont cum bek anymore..

I was found a guy who b with me now..

Bt, i stil cnt put u down ?

U gave a lot of happpiness to me,

The secret abt .. us..

The thing abt .. us ...

the memories of .. us

the smile , happy, laugh , enjoyful.. ..

bt,

the rest of now is

cruel .. sad.. hurt.. suffer n cry ..

Sry ,

ken ...

I hurt u .. I noe i said tat thing is hurt u ...

I sry now..

I sry ....

mayb u wont forgive me..

bt..nvm ..

I hope u happy..

I wil prove to u ..

I wil happy with jia hui ..

I wont let jia hui cry n sad..

For u ... this moment

你現在應該睡了吧，已經好久沒谈天了，
最近過的如何呢？！是不是一切都好呢！
不論妳在何時何地，记得我这个朋友哦！
也好順便讓我知道，你真的一切都順心！
對於所有你的消息，我真的都非常關心！
我只是想知道幸福，是否已經降臨於妳！
真的不知道怎麼做，你才會真正的開心！
你的笑對我很重要！只是我從沒查覺到！
也許這是現世報吧！我以前對你不夠好！
一直到現在才發現！你對我真的很重要！
我一直都還在原地！想著有天會再相遇！
從前那些是是非非！已經成了過往雲煙！
我們都要很有勇氣！去面對未來的改變！
縱然沒有愛在身邊！都還是要努力向前！
虽我想有妳在身邊！陪我一起哭笑瘋顛！
但我知道！现在已经没有这个机会了阿！


~請看每行第5個字

Quotes

The love tat we have

where is it ?

Tears collected in my eye

I face upward my head

Nt going to let the tears drop down

I wripped it off

'I wil gt over it sumday'

I told myself

I lie myself everytime

bt it is breaken up in front of u

I cnt fotget u

The guy I loved

Bt I wil nt couple with u

I sked of hurt

Pain , heartbroken, suffer, engryless

pls.. Gv me sum ways to let me breath

I'm breathless

I'm bleeding

.......

useless at all

Sep 16th

Wednesay.

Today, I'm moodless. I sat togather with him in the chemistry lad. We din chat.I din even look him even he jz sat beside me. I think he wil b change his seat tmr.Anyway,I wil treat it usual.I noe he doesnt lv me anyomre n he din stare me today .

I cnt put down him ? Otherwise I jz dun wan put him down ? Lolx.. to be or nt to be, tat is a queation . I'm calm tat time. I feel comfort while sat beside him. Lolx.. Tat is wat we called couple ?When we were loving each other,we hug .But when we breap up, we sat for starngely. Radiculous.

He din stare me today, through this, I cn noe he doenst lv me . Y I stil care abt this guy ? I told myself I wanna put him down n attention to JH. But,Y i cnt do it ?
I din lv him anymore ? I dun noe...

I'm thinking of him.Isnt he fall lv in yen ching ? Or he .. I dun noe. Zhi ying , let take it easy, dun treat it too persistance. U can keep ur feel in ur mind .

We r nt match at all . He nt the guy I wanna . Y I stil miss him ? God, pls gv a reason to forget abt this guy ! Pls...

I shall nt to stare him anymore. No matter wat happen, I shal nt to stare him. Zhi Ying, ken dun wan u jor !! he wanna leave u jor !! u noe ?u wake up larh !! Dun dreaming summore arh!! Damn fool zhiying!!

Ken.. U r the guy I most lv in this world.. Y u hurt me twice? U r changed. Bt, nw, it doenst a deal. U r non of my bussiness.. U wanna close with yen ching, tat is ur choice.Bt, I jz wanna b ur fren.. I jz hope I can b ur fren..

Nw, I realize.. Kelly is the best fren of me..I wont forget this fren .. U r the best of fren..Frenship forever

Tat day zhi ying Go parade

HAPPY Moment with family

Exhausted bt happy ..

三分鐘就知道誰是你最愛得人? (98的準確率)

一個很準的心理測試：按下面的步驟一步一步做，不要作弊，否則你的希望會落空（用３分鐘完成）發送這個留言的人說：她的願望在十分鐘內變成現實，記住：不要有欺騙行為。這個戲的結果非常有趣，注意：按順序往下讀，不能跳躍地往下讀（只要花３分鐘，值得一試）首先拿一枝筆和一張紙，當你在作出選擇時，如果是人物，保證是你認識的，無論是數字或名字都是第1直覺，每次向下移動一行──記住：不要跳行往下讀！


一、首先在一列中寫下１到１１的序號（即１、２、３、４、５、６、７、８、９、１０,11）
二、在序號１和２的旁邊，寫下你所想的任意兩個數字
三、在序號３和７的旁邊，寫下任意兩個異性的名字。（注意：不要跳躍的向下看，不要作弊哦）
四、在序號４、５、６的旁邊，寫下朋友或親戚的名字幕（不要有欺騙行為）
五、在序號８、９、１０、１１的旁邊，寫下４首歌的名字。
六、最後，許一個願。



( 準備看答案嘞唷.... )結果：

１. 你必須把這個遊戲告訴給（序號２旁邊寫下的數字）個人。

２. 序號３是你所愛的人。

３. 序號７是你所喜歡的但不能與之相伴的人。

４. 序號４是你最關心的人。

５. 序號５是非常瞭解你的人。

６. 序號６是你重要的人。

７. 序號８的歌適合序號３的人。

８. 序號９的歌適合序號７的人。

９. 序號１０的歌最能代表你的想法。

１０. 序號１１的歌是你對生活的感受。

Zhi Ying 15th Sep

Tuesday

Yesterday, I called u . Ken, in the morning.

Both of us were talked rudely with each other n we r gt hurt. Mayb u dun , Bt, I'm . I'm care watever u talk to me. I care u even more.

Midnite, I called again. I'm damn suffer in stomach ache . But, u scold me tat u feel i'm brothering u . I'm damn hurt .

U told me u saw my pm tat write abt me n jia hui. U r angry. U r damn mad, I noe bcz I'm noe abt u .

Afternoon, I bek alone with tears in my eye. I weared a big jacket n black in colour. Tat sky is blue n windly.It is a nice day, Bt , my mood is doest vry gud. He stare at me again. I hope he wil cum n told me he wil fetch me bek bt , he din ..

I was out of cool when i walked to home.I was crying n crying . I reach home den I drink sum soya . I was drinking it by crying . I was bathing with crying . I was falling aslp with crying.
I dun noe wat i'm crying for ? For the lost love ? For the hurt ? or jz I'm used to cry everytime I break up ?
I ask myself, n i gt the ans , I'm heathbroken badly .

He did let me fal in such situation twice. He lv me ? no.. he dun. Everybody is realize he is change since tat betray, He doesnt lv me very much nw. Hurt ...

I look at the phun, jz hoping ur msg n ur misscall. I'm waiting ur apology. But , I'm disappointed every second by check the phun. I'm hurt by my choice.I was choose jia hui , bt i let u choose in the last chance. U decide to be part of . This is the best way for us.

A couple without trust , without respect.

I'm hardly to survive without u , I hope i can tel jia hui all abt this. But, I'm nt dare to call him. I wont let my feeling effect others mood. Sry, Jia hui .. Jz gv me sumtime . I wil b heal it ..

Crying is doesnt stop. When I wake up at nite, it was abt 9 or sumthing. I read my novel.<> . I open the book n listening the emo song. My heart is bleeding n tears is follow dropping .

Hw hurt abt our choice. I barely to breath. I cnt stay calm. I'm surrender to everything. I was lying on the bed energyless. I was let my tears falling . I nearly decide to sucide, luckly, I was cnt move tat time.

10pm.I phunto jiahui. I told him abt it. He try to make me comfort. He talk abt his skul's stuff . He tel a lot of joke to me. I smile ... Since tat time. I'm feeling jis hui can replace ken . He can do it .

We chat for a long time. Finally, I'm feel tired n I went bed.The last person I was thinking is Jia hui . I told myself. I lv jia hui very much ! I cn live without ken .

The distance btw me n ken is getting far away . The wall is built up . It is thick n tall. We barely to walk togather,bt, we found we r nt match. I noe ur style . U too... But nw , we dun .

Tears dropping , heartbroken, suffering. I'm facing now. Hw abt u ? I saw u r happy . I hope u wil b forever.

N jia hui, everyone is praise u r gud. U r better than ken . I think so . Pls.. jz gv me sum times.I wil forget him . I will...

The guy I most lov in this world is ken , Bt, NOW IS GETTING change.


Today

I din go skul today, I sked to face him in skul . I sked lonely.
Ken , If u lv me , pls dun hurt me ...
Jia hui .. If u lv me , pls dun hurt me ...
.....
pls... I cnt stand of hurt ... I nt as strong as u think,,, I'm nt ...

I love jia hui

Ken is a past , Jia hui is my future

jia hui , U noe .. I love u ..

SAraNGhEYo says:
zhi ying
u noe wat
i
i duno y
i so stupd
n jz nw
i tink n tink
i find out tat
i reali veri luv u
i duno y
i reali cant let u go

SAraNGhEYo says:
i forever cant beat up u ex
n onli can be the shadow
or a sub
i noe tat u wount or cant frgt u ex
i so stupd tat is
i tot
everytim whn we talk in phon
i tot can make u more hapi n grows up the luve
but.
is negative
i didnt realize tat i make u
if
1 day
u couple bak wth u ex
erm
i reali ntg the onli ting can do is gip up n hope u 2 hapi forever
n the most impotant tins is
i knew tat i worse thn worse thn u ex jz udont wan tel me n keep lie on u self
everytim whn i c my frEN
wth their gf
they r reali so swet
n i hope 1 day me oso
n i tot tat i find adi
but
erm
i didnt realize tat i make u
i reali so sry
i tink'we dont wan talk in phone ba
n n n
i nt supost to show up
nt supost to join u n zf conversation
nt supost to met u
haiz'
but
the onli ting i can say is
I REALI VERI LUV U N CANT LET U GO
REALI
i knew tat i nt pro in chase girl
onli noe talk abit cold joke
n
stupd
u r the 1st girl make me lik tis
serious
didnt lie u
i duno y
coz mayb
we nvr c eachothr be4

SAraNGhEYo says:
if 1 day
n brk up wth me.. i wount say anyting
jz respect u decide
THE END

Jia Hui, I love u by time to time. Nt day by day ,

Lov is grow when u told me like this.

Yea, I din c u b4..

Bt,I lv u ..too..

I lv u more than ken nw..

I really lv u..

When I heard ur voice sad..

I hope I cn sayang u...

Really....

Jia hui ...

I love u ..

Really..

Jz gv me sum times,

I wil prove ..I love u more than anyone...

I lv u ...

Jiz hui

I'm sry to jia hui

Jia Hui , the guy who most love me in this world !

Sry , I did told u tat thing , The prob btw us . Tat is I stil love ken .

Yea, I STIL LOVE him. But, he did let me cried many times. I found tat, I'm exactly nt suitable to him although I lov him. we r damn different type . We r just two person who love each other very much BEFORE . But nw, I shall do a best choice for us. 3 person .. Nope , mayb is 4 person ! Me , jia hui , ken n ken's nw gf.

Yarh, I choose to leave him bt I find him bek too. Many times, Bcz I cnt leave him. bCZ i'M thinking he stil the ken ! The lovely ken ,Bt, many ppl told me he has change. no longer he is the ken ! Ok ?

He is cheap guy! Hw cheap on him, I wont tel here. He is bad guy! I should leave him. Yea!! Ken, u r the guy I most love in this world. Ur position even higher than Chee kin . But, Nw is getting to update !

I love ken ! I love u ! I jz can told u here! I did spend many time on u ! Bt, Y u gv me ? Ok, Everything worst must hav a reason. The reason is a unknown bt the equation is X+Y = worst. X is u ,Y is me. Both of us gt responsible too.

I miss u ! I did ! n I hope to hear ur voice alw! Bt, ur place has been replace . I wont miss u anymore. Eveytime I mis u ,I wil tel myself. I love jia hui !!

Jia hui.. I'm sry to u . I should nt b tel u tat thing bt i did . Sry to make u sad. I'm damn regret bt it is gud to us. At least u noe wat is happening.Jia hui, I should b attention to u ..

Zhi YING,I noe u stil hope u wil gt a right bek chance from ken ! Stupid !! U noe how cheap of u !! Chong Ji YIEN !! break up once den never ever bek !! This is the advice from me !! Zhi Ying ,later chat with jia hui den straighty go bed ! Dun try to find ken !! Tat guy is doesnt worth ur tears n ur time .

Zhi YING.. he wont find u. he doesnt lov u. n mayb he gt another gal. U should think urself. U must hav a prepration tmr. He wil nt b with u . Bt, U cnt love ken anoymore!! cnt love!!

U love jia hui !! Jia hui is ur dream man !! He is ur beloved.. I love jiahui..

I should forget ken ..



Ps: Zhi Ying , pls do gud to urself. ken is memory , jia hui is ur future..

I love jia hui .. I should think it..

Jia Hui

This post is relavant to a guy. He is cheong jia hui . 17 years old from poi lam high skul .

I love him very much , bt, seem like sumthing getting wrong with him .

He is a damn sayang me guy.. I wil use my life to love him ..

Although we never meet b4, bt, I beleive

we wil hav a gud meet .. rite jia hui .. ??

7th spetember 2009 , the day we amit , we r interesting to each others

lolx..

9th september 2009 ..

I saw his offline msg. Hmm.. sweet ..~~ 090909 ... I wil appreaciate I hav a such gud bf

When sumbody love me, everything wil b beautiful ..

Lov.. u ..

,,, No title

This afternoon, While I was walking to the skul gate from classroom. The feeling came again .
OMG~
i gt jIAHUI .. he is damn love me n me too. But, Y I wil felt stupid lonely feel ?

Radiculous ... I saw he stared at me , Lots times .

' You'll get over it...' I told myself .

We begin to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. .. But, Y I saw a perfect person getting worst time by time ?

yes.. I love Jia hui . Bt, I'm cnt let go ken .

Do I greedy ? I think so ..

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you .
I suggest the break up idea n u accept. I do really cnt stand of u anymore.
But,Y I wil such stupid to phun u jz nw ?
Tat has a dIfference to chat with u n jia hui .
Y i cnt get rid of u !?? Y ?

Missing is a terrible stuff ! I had been experienced last time. It is gud to leave u , It is gud to hurt myself. As I use a knife n suck it to my heart .then, I heal it myself. It is bledding all the time.

I should forget him even I cnt. Time is a best medicine . Dun push too hard .

Jia hui..a guy I alw thinking of . The double cheong.. the stuff we chat .. the funny we share. I never forget i hav a guy lov me very much .

Memories wil save in our heart til we leave this world ..

09 sEp 2009 , AtTeDiNg a dEaD

Plz pay attention to my eye ...

Damn swell !!

Oh my god !!!

this nt cause by crying..

is.. non slping ...

Mixed cuision

I'm going to buy a lot of eye mask n facial mask . I din slp well many days.Everyday on9 til so late. Oh my god... I think when he saw me , he wil shock n flee away ... Lolx..

Estee lauder, ZA,SASA, ... n any others else brand u can introduce to me ??

for the eye mask ? ... I'm need it!!

Hmmm ..shock

SAraNGhEYo says:


remmbr tat i say i felt intrstin on a girl?? acualy she is u.. i duno y.. but..i noe i no hope coz u ardy ppl who intrestin but if i dont tell
sei lo
y i pred tre jor de
OMG


Zhï ¥ïñg says:
hmm
shock


SAraNGhEYo says:
me oso shock
i aciddenly press ENTER
omg





Shock !! When he told me !! oh my god ~~

after he told me ... the gal who he is interesting ,,,

SAraNGhEYo says:
a hope to chase u lo
but i reali duno hw to chase

Zhï ¥ïñg says:
chase = ?
wat is chase ?

SAraNGhEYo says:
yer...

Zhï ¥ïñg says:
jz ply u only..
lolx
hmm...
doing wat?
eird ques....

SAraNGhEYo says:
tis time

Zhï ¥ïñg says:
weird ques**

SAraNGhEYo says:
i reali fall luv jor

Zhï ¥ïñg says:
hmm....
so ?

SAraNGhEYo says:
ierali long time didnt tis kinf of fell
i reali*
sry oo

Zhï ¥ïñg says:
apology for wat ?

SAraNGhEYo says:
coz
i didnt tel u lo

Lolx.. finally... we chat long time...

love letter

hmm ... A love letter. ..

妳現在應該睡了吧，已經好久沒見面了，

最近過的如何呢？！是不是一切都好呢！

不論妳在何時何地，記得打通電話給我！

也好順便讓我知道，妳真的一切都順心！

對於所有妳的消息，我真的都非常關心！

我只是想知道幸福，是否已經降臨於妳！

真的不知道怎麼做，妳才會真正的開心！

妳的笑對我很重要！只是我從沒查覺到！

也許這是現世報吧！我以前對妳不夠好！

一直到現在才發現！妳對我真的很重要！

我一直都還在原地！想著有天會再相遇！

從前那些是是非非！已經成了過往雲煙！

我們都要很有勇氣！去面對未來的改變！

縱然沒有愛在身邊！都還是要努力向前！

可我想有妳在身邊！陪我一起哭笑瘋顛！

這樣的話！我才會有勇氣面對一切改變！

~請看每行第5個字

Love..sweet ... When I saw it.. I smile n ... sweet in heart ..

A dead

Have u ever seen a person dying ? Have u ever seen a person's heartbeat slowing down til die ?

I HAVE !

I jz bek from fatimah,it was happened a sad event. I'm wish time can turn bek n we stil hv harmony life with auntie. But, we hav to face truth,She was dead. DEAD ! Bad word ! Out!
Mayb passed away is more suitable to her.

Auntie mei yoke is nice , gud, pretty ,talkful .. etc .. I love her so much . She leave her son suddenly , all of her family cant accept it.

I'm the teens gal who stading thr to witness it . Jz fews hours ago, I stand thr, wearing a tube dress which black n white colour n a black jacket. I stand far awat from wei yip. A guy who was my best fren in my childhood. He was holing his dad's hand n crying silence.

I noe wat feeling was them.But, My sentence cnt help them much. Mayb a hug a enuf to gv him a warm . Bt, I din gv him a hug , I jz put my hand in his back. I told him.. dun think too much.

His mom is leave him. How cum he can accept this event? he is jz a teens with 16 years old. Wei yup, U must 'shang xing' ..as ur aunt shout in front of the door . U wont let ur mom worry , u wil ?

The 1st, I nt dare to in the door . I sked to witness all of the sad evernt n I nt so close to her family. So,I stand outside. But, after 5mins. I went in . It is the last heartbeat of her. 'TU~~~~~~~~~' the mechince was sound lik this. Jz same like the movie.. the relative cry louder later..n me.. stand thr .. dull

When I was saw ths, I was mourn to wei yip family n upset .

We r jz normal person. When our family or fren was falling iil n went to hospital . Doctor wil gv us medicine . DEN, WE HEAL . Bt, if we take the wrong medicine from doctor. we wil fall in serius . too, If we belated to hospotal, we wil die.

y ?? Y we jz cnt handle out life in front of the Death? We jz like a fool who stupid around by doctor. 'injection nid xxx hundred thousand ' ' the fees nid xxx hundred thousand' .. etc .. money money moeny ~~!!! I cnt stand of this !! Stupid doctor ! Return my auntie !

Auntie mei yoke, Ur son wil behave well after U leave them. I noe u r miss ur son ,bt they wil make u pround of them. Rite ? U wil b a angel .. alw surrounding us . U din leave us, jz u move to oths planet to live. U wil b my angel 4ever.

Wei yup, dun cry. Although u r strong in front of me. Bt, I noe u wil getting better. U hav a strong family. Wei yup, my dear fren ... be alrite .. wish u can handle ur life stronger in ur future ..