This morning in the Chemistry lad , as usual , we chat . I means , We talk with mock to each other . I told him abt I called Yong B last nite bcz asking abt his -ex 's fs. Just like tat . Okay , the quarrel was began. We quarell and finally , I tot the winner is me bt , I got wat he felt in this time conversation .
I told him abt I will go to find tat gal and let her noe abt our thing. I 'm making reprisals now . I told him abt my plan. First ,I edit his fs and wrote abt many sweet thing abt us.. Then, I view her fs on purpose .After this ,I will let her noe abt when she was couple with him , he didnt love her at all . I told him abt this , bt wat his response is , ' I can said , tat profile is nt my edit .. is chong ji yien edit ! ' He talk with pround and smile to me. I bowl down my head , and I said ' oorh.. hehe' Yea.. wat can I reapond ? I dun noe.. But , I noe , actually he doesnt love me rite .. I fel it long time and Everytime I ask him , he just cheat at me .
I feel shame on myself , I dun noe wat to do and I just get hurt from him . I noe tat, he is unwilling to show out wat kind of relationship of us and he just nt treat me as his gf .
I should noe wat position is mine and I should clear with my action . I should delete all thing , I should distinguish wat should I do . I smart this time . I gave up . I gave up . But , it is nt represent I 'm surrender.Nope! I just do wat I wanna do now . I let him happy ,I wont let him feel I 'm like a fly alw disturb him.. Nope ! I'm nt a rubbish ! Sry.. I 'm a smart gal . I wont let others feel I'm bothering around u !
From the day we fine again , I did make a preparetion in my mind . Once I take up this love , sumday , I wil put down with happy . I did make it ! So, if we break this time , I must nt like last time .. fool around and stupid .. mess myself up . I can handle my life very well. I can ..
I shall mature to view and absorb all the things tat happen in my surrounding . I wont foolish like last time. Today , I lost u . Tommorrow , I get a better . I will ..
