Sunday, September 27, 2009

Sep 27 .. nt a mood

Nt a mood today .
I feel tiredless . I dun noe this is cause by physical or mental. I have no idea!
I sked to go to skul bcz o have to meet him. Haiz.. U noe,haiz.. the past thing I dun wanna think anymore.

I chatted with my aunt who is back from singapora n she is rich jz now . I told her tat i wanna b a pilot.She agreed n we start to discuss abt it. She promise me she wil help me to gt the scholarship in singapora one .But,the 1st thing is ..I must get straight A's in SPM .

FULLED A's ??? Can I gt it ? The 1st time I think abt my future with seriusly .My aunt do gv me a lot of pressure .I promise her, I wil do m best !

OK!! If.. luckily, I really gt the scholarship from singapora one , den , wat wil b my future ? My aunt said , they wil send me to US for taking couse . I forgot wat the hell of the university name , bt .. it is seem like very fabulous. I can do it ??Yea!! I can do it..

The 1st thing I worry abt is Jia hui . He told me he dun wan bek to us n he wanna stay at malaysia. OMG~~ yea~~..Malaysia.. So, how is our future? izit.. I'm US n . he is in m'sia..

I dun noe .. Jz nt a mood .. moody...

Now, I wont gv a damn to them.I means ken n his fren . I'm serius. I jz treat everyone as my normal fren n I wont tel anymore my secret anymore in my skul execpt Yan . she is my sister ...

Mayb this wil protect me from gtting hurt . I should nt think too much. I made a lot of nighmares recently.I dream him everyday, tat hurt feel occurs everynite in my dream.I sked ,fear ... Omg..tat is nt the way ...

No ... it is nt !! I'm nt love him. No.. this type of stupid ,useless question ! I WONT THINK !!! FUck it off ! GET AWAY FROM MY MIND! U DID TROUBLE ME!! OMG~

Anyway,the most important thing is study n study n study .

Pilot!! YEA~~ pilot ... I'm coming now..

The others...I wont think n I wont waste my time on it...

Keep doing job better!! Working hard !! yea..
I feel my life energy agian...

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