I'm bad gal

I'm bad gal .

Yea... Just now , I had a phun talk with jia hui. We shared our life experience to each others.He told me abt his skul . Lolx.. tat is funny. He said he r bad at Tum lui zai .. but, he doesnt noe,his voice can comfort my heart. He doesnt noe , I lv his sound even we r rarely to meet . But, his sound is very similiar to me. Just like, we r old fren .

I'm bad gal. I'm.. definately .. bad gal. I nt gud bcz I .. mayb just let others feel .Lolx.. this is my prob.. Mayb .. lolx..
He told me tat, he is very sayang me bt , other side, I nt at all.. I'm nt very sayang him at all.. Lolx.. How can i said.. lolx.. Yea... I think so .. But, I had done my best ...

sigh .....

Jia hui , I had do my best to called u in my time. I had do my best to on9 every nite even I'm facing my exam .I had done with my best . But , U told me tat I'm nt sayang u very much ,,, lolx.. I heard it.. I just.. speechless...

Speechless... I noe .. I'm nt gud gal now.. I realise now.. I dun noe b4 .. lolx.. Mayb it is my style .. Bad style ..

Nt very pleasure to hear it ...

Just fews hours ago, I found tat the memorize btw me n ken .Lolx.. I cried jor leh ~~~ T.T

Cry is nt for stil loving him .. tat is .. I just mourm for the dead love. Lolx.. Ihad putted down u eventually...

Haiz....

Bad gal~~ ....

Happy or sad.. ur choice

生命可以让你有１００个哭的理由，

但也可以让你有１０００个笑的理由，

不应该属于你的烦恼，就不要去想..

快乐其实很简单，

哭或笑，都由你选择...

Life can let u have 100 reason for sad

Life can also let u have 1000 reason for smile

The trouble which nt belong to u ,dun think it

Happy life is simple actually,

Smile or cry , ur choice ...

I dun noe wat is going on ??

Hey ..
I really dun noe wat is going on ??
He suddenly off .. n ..
haiz..
I really dun noe wat is happening ..

OMG~~

Jia hui is angry this time ..
I jz chat with fren ..n i knew it is late ..
But.. haiz..
I jz manage my blog ..
Tat's all .. nth more ...

Oh my god~~

I'm getting fat

OMG~~

It is sad for happening!!
I'm getting fat!! OMG~~
U noe..
I'm 50KG now~~ oh my god~~
I cnt imagine how fat am i!!
Oh my god!!
It is a nightmare for me!!
It is terrible !!
@@

I cnt let myself fat bek ! I wont!!
I wont!! OH my god!!
Y I taked the supper ??

I should on diet now!!
50 TO 43 kg ~
I wil !! ....

I wil ... 43 Kg.. my goal !
going to achieve it ...

Sep 27 .. nt a mood

Nt a mood today .
I feel tiredless . I dun noe this is cause by physical or mental. I have no idea!
I sked to go to skul bcz o have to meet him. Haiz.. U noe,haiz.. the past thing I dun wanna think anymore.

I chatted with my aunt who is back from singapora n she is rich jz now . I told her tat i wanna b a pilot.She agreed n we start to discuss abt it. She promise me she wil help me to gt the scholarship in singapora one .But,the 1st thing is ..I must get straight A's in SPM .

FULLED A's ??? Can I gt it ? The 1st time I think abt my future with seriusly .My aunt do gv me a lot of pressure .I promise her, I wil do m best !

OK!! If.. luckily, I really gt the scholarship from singapora one , den , wat wil b my future ? My aunt said , they wil send me to US for taking couse . I forgot wat the hell of the university name , bt .. it is seem like very fabulous. I can do it ??Yea!! I can do it..

The 1st thing I worry abt is Jia hui . He told me he dun wan bek to us n he wanna stay at malaysia. OMG~~ yea~~..Malaysia.. So, how is our future? izit.. I'm US n . he is in m'sia..

I dun noe .. Jz nt a mood .. moody...

Now, I wont gv a damn to them.I means ken n his fren . I'm serius. I jz treat everyone as my normal fren n I wont tel anymore my secret anymore in my skul execpt Yan . she is my sister ...

Mayb this wil protect me from gtting hurt . I should nt think too much. I made a lot of nighmares recently.I dream him everyday, tat hurt feel occurs everynite in my dream.I sked ,fear ... Omg..tat is nt the way ...

No ... it is nt !! I'm nt love him. No.. this type of stupid ,useless question ! I WONT THINK !!! FUck it off ! GET AWAY FROM MY MIND! U DID TROUBLE ME!! OMG~

Anyway,the most important thing is study n study n study .

Pilot!! YEA~~ pilot ... I'm coming now..

The others...I wont think n I wont waste my time on it...

Keep doing job better!! Working hard !! yea..
I feel my life energy agian...

Having a phun talk

Jz nw , Jia Hui called me . Lolx..

He is finished his exam today. He said he felt free n relax . Then, he called me bcz he as feeling bored . I talk with him with quite ... hard . lolx..

He told me his fren is plying football in class . Lolx !! Football ? quite .. over nomal.. lolx..
Then, i can heard lot of noisy ..especailly , tat sex shout sound .. lolx..

Tat is funny .. Freaking sound with freaking ppl ...

I cnt imagine how cum they cn ply football in class. Then, his fren was teasing him with shout beside him n hit the ball toward him .. funny ..

haiz..

Suddenly , I think bek my life. A period of time i also crazy like them .. but, it is funny too ..
Nw.. no longer the time wil bek , tat is jz a happy memory for me ..
I miss my fren . those crazy gang fren .. 2A1 ... 3A1 .. n nw.. 4sc3 ...

From happy , crazy , laughful n relax moment change to stressful , arugeing , n upset ... mood.
sigh ...

I sudden hope I stil is the childish kid.. A little gal without stress.. But, ken brought it far away from me..

Haiz.. exam is around the corner .. lolx..

Keep working hard. ... zhiying

Love

I was reading a well blog. He is a guy , n , he knew girl's heart very much . No wonder he has no girlfriend.

It is holiday now . I met jia hui twice . Lolx.. Suddenly flash back , every holiday , I wil hang out with him . Too. We promised each other, this holiday we wil go parade. Lolx.. Now, I have my new life n new bf. How abt u , ken ? Lolx..

Thankyou, ken . Thanks for reject me. Thank you for ur cruel . I'm thank with my faith. Because of u , I have a such gud bf now. he loves me very much, jz like u were ...

I wil think I'm going to sad n lonely sumtimes. But, it is nt really hard to lost u . Nope, it is nt lost .. it is leave. The best way of us . Lolx ...

I'm tired abt u . I'm mad of u . I means.. our relationship. How cum u cn ... haiz... nvm ...

Past ....

Lolx..

Hope we wil happy.. n hope.. my studies wil getting better !!!
Lolx...

23 Sep 2009

The second day we met . Me n Jia hui . He is a chatful n active guy . I love him so much .

Taken in Jusco ..

Although we cnt hv a movie n shopping with u quite boring. But, it is happy too...
lolx

The end ......

Fren for life

kElly yew - yan ..... (dA JIE)

dA JIE .. i'M SRY . I dissappointed u many times.I have no idea abt the apology n I dun noe how to said sry in front of u . I madded u ,, sry ...

Kelly , I think many of my fren also noe who is her. A cute gal lorh .. Called kelly. Although she doesnt likes this name, bt , kely is suitable to u . really. I promise,. i didnt lie to u ...

Kelly,u teach me many thing. Such as, how to face love , how to cruel . N .. u b with me whenever i fel sad , happy , angry n also excited. Lolx..U r important for me.

Dajie, I treat u as my sister.Our relationship nt normal as best fren. no.. u r my da jie.. really da jie..

I love u ...

Lolx.. it is too ... 'freeze' ...

Kelly , u told me nt going to find ken anymore. Forget this guy . N u scoled me , Y i stil wanna find him.. u said u wanna beat me bcz i 'm too fool n stupid!! Tat time msn .. I never forget how angry n sad r u .. n also the dissapoint..

Kelly, sry .. pls.. forgive my foolness..I promise u , I wil let u c i smile n laugh.I wont let u c I cry .. U said.. u dun wan c i cry anymore.. .. i NOE..

sRY .. I wil change.. n I wil let u c i smile.. okie ?

sry for let u worry abt....I wil nt goignt o let u worry abt me agian ..

i wil .. okie.. both of us.. nt sad anymore ..

N u. dun keep ur sadness in heart.Speak it out. ok ?

I wil support u jz like u support me. ... I must...

this world is match. we same class in kindergarden , n now , we same class togather.Many years has past.. we meet togather.. lolx.. it is.. lolx..

Promise me .. we must toward our relatinship to better n better . okie ??

lolx..

N..

we cnt aruge gah ... ok ??

hmm..

best fren forever . Frindship forever.. n.. family forever... okie ??

Lots ques... u cn stand anot ??lolx..

Zhi Yiing n his past tense

A week has past ... I dun noe u gt view my blog anot ..

watever ... It is useless...

I'm poor in express my feeling , improving my gramma ...

I was tt just now n had my breakfast with my fren . Queen ,she told me sumthing abt ken . she knews ken is loving yen ching n yen ching replaces me.. OMG~~

'Tat is nth to me.' I told myself. They seem like really close . I even cnt imagine how close r them.. Wat's wrong with me ? I stil care abt this guy ? HUH ? Am i a stupid ? Yea.. I'm fool !

Think twice . He was a part of my life , but it is past tense for now . I have my future with my new partner. I should nt jz care the 'first love ' .. Although this is hard to forget.

If u jz hold ur hand , u can jz gt little . Otherwise, u open ur hand , u cn receive more.

Yea.. It is rite.

I rmb tat moment tat we went for badmintoon. I asked u get away from me bcz u r smelling. Den , u this naughty boy.. u wripped ur sweats to my clothes,, den u smiled to me.. like a child.. like a kid.. It is ... sweet..

I said louderly.. ' sui yan ~~ yer~~~ hou sui arh ni~~' .... U stil smile like a kid.. Tat face stil shown keep in my mind . Actually , u r cute.. really a sor lou.. Bt it is nt belong to me anymore..

I lay on ur shoulder n call u .. ' lao gong.. u c... sharon's new phun.. u c .. u c.. yer~~ .. ' I start to 'teh ' u ... U answered like a adult. ' ya la ,ya la.. den u ignore me.. ' I keep on disturdb u ' laogon.. yer.. dun c this .. c thr.. aiyer.. ur lao po is pretties in this world rite ? ' ' ya la.. U r.. ' den u kiss my check ... lolx.. U r a adult.. so mature.. I lov it

We plyed badminton. U hitted the ball n it beat on my body . I pretend angry . I said..' heng!! U stand !! dun move!!! ' Den i hit the ball to ur body .. u smile.. I smile.. den u bully me again .. hit the ball to my body again ..den I ' yer~~~ har wo!! ' den i pretend angry again .. U cum beside me n hug me.. Said.. ' aiyo. dun like tat la.. ok . sek fan .. ' lox..u r the best medicine to let me cheer up .. n .. u also the one who can let me die.. u r the most efficient poison for me ..

I realizE u r important for me in ths world.. I wil forget u WITH also those sweet memories..

it is hard to do , though . I 'm trying..

Sry , ken .. thx ken.. I love u , ken ..

Tat song , 'our story is nt end yet' U said u love it. Bcz tat lyris is exactly wat u wanna said to me . I'm listening this song now. I noe hw helpless u r, I should more care abt u tat time .I should gv more warm to u , confidence, time , love , smile.. n nt the stressn pressure tat let u cnt breath . I shouldnt..

I noe how much u love me. Bt, it is past now. I noe. Tat promises, jz let it go , ok ?
ken , if u read this post.. rmb.. U r the best fren of me..
U must happy forever oorh ~~... cnt b sad.. n .. u can beat urself to achieve a flying result !! rite ?
U r smart . i noe.
U cnt give up .. try hard ... Zhi Ying . is alw b here for u ...
Ken, u must happy forever.
If nt, my tears n hurt is wasted .
All of us must happy nw~~ ken .. Thankyou. U let me feel hurt n love..
lolx...
cry is doesnt a deal . the important is ..I learn it. n i must keep it .. !! keep it...

Ken ,the most important special noun of my life. bt, now my life hav a new nouns.. I discover a new noun..Jia hui ..

Jia hui ,

If u love me.. plz dun hurt me...pls.. pls.. pls...