Ken

I had a idea suddenly while I wrote the last post.

Ok.. Turn to the point .Let us talk abt ken .. A guy I loved ...

He is a very hot temper guy n he wont care anybody when he is angrying . yea, he is very care his gf when necessary. he is gud in 'chi chu ' bt very cute ..

He is smart bt lazy . he is clever bt lazy. he is a genius bt lazy . Lazy let him fall down time to time .
He is wellcoming by teachers , bt , he strike it with himself .
He is loving zhi ying .. bt .. he doesnt treat zhi ying very gud..
He is alw scold zhi ying bcz of his fren .
He is a gud boy.. sumtimes ..
He is gud in english .. sumtimes ..
He is gud in debated...
He is a tolence master ...

Yea.. Tat gud of him I list out ... A guy I loved.. ken ...

Ken .. a nice name . I noe u hav others..bcz u saw my pm msg . I'm sry .. Tat is my feeling . I'm hiding my emotion in front of u , bcz I sked wil gt hurt . I'm alert . Ur fren, he did lot of thing to broke our love. We quarrel,argue ,fight many times bcz of him . I told myself wont love u anymore ,I wont miss u anymore.
I did it . I alw tel myself if we break up , I wil have a better guy to b with . I want myself 4gt u since one month
ago.

Ken chau.. a chatful guy. Mayb u r very chatful to ur buddy. But,for me , u r lame . U r unwilling to chat with me sumtimes. U r keep secret alw .. U do nt discuss to me when u take action. U lt me feel hurt sumtimes.

Ken chau.. a bad guy . U r bad guy. U alw scold me n fiece to me. I noe it is my prob. But, I just wan u treat me with soft n gentle maner. I love ur gentle . But, It is dissapear .. U wont face genlte to me. U hav ur fren ,I hav my fren. Both of us gt a big uncommon. suck ...

Ken chau.. a guy I hoping he wil alw b with me . A guy I loved or loving .. I cn happy without u, bt u do hav a 'seat' in my mind.

Ken .. the name display on scene when i call u. The name I sked. I'm fear when i was waiting u ans my call. U seldom ans my call. 'DU DU DU ' I sked heard tat. Everytime I cnt heard ur sound , I wil think u r being with sumone.. Although u r being now...

ken .. common name ... but , I dun noe Y i wil write this for u ... For u ?? Yea. mayb.. I'm rescuring our relatinship. I was alw thinking of tat phun ringing n display ur num.. msn show tat u r on 9...


no no no !!! I WONT MISS U !!! CNT !! it is out of contro ll.......

CHatting with jen .... considering call u anot ... yes or no.. a gud question... haha...

Ridiculous... speechless

About us

I called him . Just now ,

I told him , I din call him tmr bcz I have sumthing to do . I heard his phun is ringing , Msg ... n .. he told me.. ' wont regret' .

I noe he has others . I noe , this time .. Just like last time . I wont .. I wont I wont ... call him startfrom now . Let he n tat gal hav a gud time . I wont disturb. He tot I'm stil like a fool , tat I'm angrying abt him . He mayb wil tot I'm a stupid . I dun noe wat was going on n the next ..when i noe he has other. I wil chase him bek .

No .ken, u made a wrong decision. This time , zhi Ying is nt only childish zhi ying . Zhi ying has her experience n she'll naughty sumtimes. no longer Zhi Ying is simple ... She has many feeling in her mind n she never told u.U tot she is a alw annoy n crazy n fa pi qi without any reason gal . She do everything with her reason . She angry to u bt u never care abt her.

Jen said, just gv sum times to us .. time ?? is it necessery? I dun think so . I gv him many times n he too. I noe he is cnt stand of me. He is dislike me . Okay.. tat is nth to me .

I'm being chasing by a guy now. I wil n I'm acceptting his chase. U wont noe it . U tot ur gf just a stupid. No.. start from tat day u betray , she is changing .

I wil b out with him in wed. U hav ur gal n I hav my boy . different life bt happy .

Glad I hav prepare . I din gt hurt this time n I noe we wil break sumday. Love is gone .. miss is dissappear. the rest of us is ... tired n dry ...

Ken... u wil b my fren 4ever.. no matter wat happen .
U r the guy who let me change ..
U r the guy who let me change ..
U r the guy who let me change ..

If u din appear in my life, Mayb I stil a childish gal who dreaming over everthin' with fren . Mayb I'm stil a very 'common' gal . But now, I was changed til I cnt recognize myself. The betray let me learn many thing ... I hate it !!

Sad ?? heartbroken ?? suffer ??
No.. I din gt this feel .. I'm execting my wed.. the 1st date .. the 1st date.. Important..!!
Wat kind of relationship of us now ?? suck !!
Anyway .. I'm waiting ur word.. the break up word. .

Single is the best !! ZhI YING is Single

I just bek from a gathering. Omg~~ I have been attend 2 gathering in this month. Haiz .. TIred ~~

Anyway, tmr I wil go to my cousin's fallwell party , bt it is held in Elvis . Then, Sun I wil date with my fren. Sumthing need to talk to them, I nid they bcum my dustbin.. Watever thing I also wanna tell them . I sad n confused many times . Should I keep coupling with ken or I suggest tat Better than we break up . Break up doesnt means heartbroken. Yea.. Jen is rite .

Today, we argue bcvz tat suck guy agian ! He told Mr.lee , I wil find gangster to hit him in this holiday . Oh my god ~~ I never wanna do tat ! But ,the most ridiculous stuff is -- Ken had signed a deal with Mr.lee tat is abt , He wil 'watch' me in this holiday n promise I wont make trouble anymore !! Hey ~ Who r u ?? U noe , U had overbearing my stuff. Tat is abt me n tat cheap guy 's stuff.. Y U wanna busy body around ? I noe u care me , bt , it is nt the best method u be . U never think my feeling. tat deal u make with Mr'lee , it was represent tat I wil n I'm managing the plan to hit him ! Hey ~~ Wat stupid stuff u did ?? oh my godness ~~

Orh ... Although I'm angry . Bt, from now . I wont make trouble anymore. I promise him . I wont from now . I wont care u anymore. I wont love u anymore . So, I wont angry u anymore. Okay ? Tat is d way .

Hmm... I decide to leave him . Yea.. from now .. I'm waiting his word. tat break up break from his mouth .

Okay.. start from now. Zhi YING must nt find him anymore. No call, no date , no miss , no love . I wont call him anymore. I wont miss him anymore .I cn survive very well in my own life. I wont care who out with him . I wont care wat is going on with him. I wont tel him abt my thing . I wont expect he wil apology to me. I wil trying to do my best. I wil trying to forget him. I wil used to single life. I wil keep fit n love myself..

single is the best !! ZHi YING IS SINGLE

Tat quotes copy from Jen

how can u expect me not to bother
when it is my past that i messed up

how can i be happy
when it just hurt too much to think about

how can i hope anyone would understand
when i don't even know what i truly want

Copy from Jen's blog ..

Yea.. How cn I dun bother , How cn I happy , How ??

I'm bad in english. I cnt express my feeling very well.

Lolx... U ask me, stil love him anot ? I said... hahah.. mayb ... Y I bcum like tat ? Y I hide up myself in front of ken ? It is unfair to him ! He is loving me . BUT, whr is my heart ? I leave this game , I surrender .

He wont understand me. Never..

Tat present actually is nt important . I dun noe Wat I angry for .. Mayb..I'm stingy...

Happy ?? Tat day u betray me , I never happy ..since tat

sked,panic, untrustful.. tat is alw going with me ...

But,I'm fine now .. Really.. well n well..

No way foR me to sad .. But , no way for me cheer up ..

Nvm... I lv my fren ~~Fren ... Fren ... Fren

ps: Jen..I'm fine.. Iwont sad.. I'm be strong .. Ok..

n u too.. b strong n happy

These days ...

These days , both of us alw argue.I feel tired .

Haiz.. Mayb it is my fault,I dun noe wat is the prob tat cause I saw him I wil mad . And his attitude is bad to me too.Big prob.. . Mayb, we r nt suitable to each other.

Today, we discuss abt tat ques again.He said he wanna find man tou, bcz he missunderstood Mt wanna chase me. Maybe Mt is , bt , he said he wanna hit him . Oh my god!! Violence ~~

Y he wanna cheat me ? Okay, u din write blog ,U just say u din write.Y u wanna cheat at me? Y u gv me a such big hope den let it fall ? Haiz.. dissappoint to u ....

I never 4gt how he treat me. He ripped my paper , tat is my drawwing!! How dare he do it !! He is crazy !! Today,he asked me, Isnt I nt love him anymore ? My mind din hav any respond.I just feel,I couple with a guy ,just for name. No mur lov in it , no longer 'love til die' feeling in it. Glad I hav prepare,I noe, sumday, we will break. sumday, he'll leave me like last time .Sumday, I'll alone. No !!I'm nt alone! Never alone, I stil have my frens! My frens r alw be with me. Fren is important than bf ! It is cnt denied.

I'm worry abt d end-year trip.I should keep couple with him for go d trip, or else I ask other go with me. Hmm.... Should I keep couple with him bcz he cn go with me. Other side, I find another guy who cn be with me 2 go d trip.But,I'm really lazy to find a guy.I wanna tat guy slp with me worh..this guy must close with me , I lazy to build up relationship with guy. lazy.

He love me ? Or he need me ? or he cnt 4gt me ?
This types of ques alw flow to my mind.Mayb we just nid a partner be with when feel boring.
Love... hahah.. foolish stuff .

Wat types of promise wil broke eventually . So, I be a smart this time. Trying nt to fully believe 'promise' .We must noe,even believe this word.the middle of it stil gt'lie' . I wont believe any guy since gt hurt tat time. I wont ! Fren is alw important than bf !

Fren wont lie to u .. Bt bf wil lie to u.Fren wil nt hurt u , bt bf wil. Fren wil be with u when u r upset,bt bf wil nt. Fren wil never scold u bt bf wil. Fren is the most loyal person in ur life, bt for bf... hahah.. I never noe Isnt he gt another gal outside or.. Isnt he is chasing sumone ? I never noe..Fren wil be with u wherever u go, canteen, lab,bek home .. or other else.. They wil be with u, bt.. bf .. just leave u alone.. haiz..

I call him just now.No longer I wil thrill to expect his sound.Instead, I hate his sound. He let me hate him very much.I think carefully... I nt love him anymore. He is nt the guy I wanna . He wil leave me eventually. I noe. He wil turn bek, n leave me alone. He wil go with his fren n leave me alone. Haha..

Foolish love! Foolish ZhiYing! Y u wanna find him bek tat time ? U r stupid n idiot.No one cn worth for ur tears. U noe.. No one! U must appreaciate ur tears. He is nt belong to u...U cn treat him as ur fren bt dun love him anymore. No.. U cnt fall in his love. He is bad guy. Plz.. 4gt everything abt him. Close ur mind. Hide up urself.. U cn avoid gt hurt in love . U cn.. U r zhiying.

Just now, I saw Ping Lun in pasar malam.Have a hello.. n chat sumthing.. Happy nerh!!!! My sis was envied of me bcz she is his fren. But he doesnt look at her ..HAHA.. FUNNY ..

I love myself! I love my frens!! I love my life!! I muackz... to my future!! But.. I dun love my bf.. nEVER again .

Fren

It is getting 11.10 pm ... Omg.. damn tired ..
Hehex..I dun noe y my mind is alw thinking of fren..Fren is important . Yup .. frenship is a kind of relatinship which canconversed a longer time than others relationship.
Last week, I tot yen ching n lychee wont close n care me anymore . Bcz of ken , they leave mefar away. I tot like this .But,while I take my bag , Yen ching gv me a confidence glance n ask me dun think so much . Tat feeling is warm .Howluckly was me?
Thx god.. I stil have my best fren. ANd kelly,hey ..Justlet it go.Take it easy..Dun so stuborn in tat stuff , ok ?? U reading myblog rite? Haha.. I noe u have many prob,bt, if u share, I must ..I wilHELP U with my whole soul! Worh.. so serius of me.. lolx..
I knew a new best fren recently in my life. She is Jen. A very smart gal . She said she is dull.. I dun think so. Haha.. by the way, she is another Yen ching . A caring n honest gal.I just viewed her blog , she is suffering on her loving stuff. she cnt forget her ex. nvm.. time will paling everthing. Zhi Ying stand by for u ..
BF is important than best fren ?? haha.. I dun noe.bf have its own position n best fren is very precious.Thx for a lots of caring .


PS: I maked sum herbal pudding for u.. All of my best fren can eat.. bt,Jen.. U cnt.. I cnt post to u ..too far from m'sia to ur thr. Nvm .. hutang 1st ... wait u bek to m'sia . I treat u eat.. lolx.. Yawp ~~ sleepy now... going to bed.. bye bye

Attend a gathering

OMG~~ Just Attend a gathering ... Tired now ....
I'm belated bek home ..
I think it is 12 or sumthing .. nvm ...
Haiz..
Just have a chat with him ..
Nt bad ...
Both of us do not understand each other very well ..
Prob ... prob ...
I dun noe wat the prob going with us ???

A bunch of gal ...

The video was happened in my neighborhood ..

Cool .. c .. wat m'sian has did !!

Nowaday, teens alw violence to settle their prob ..

Useless..

Mess up

Today , haiz.. it was hapepned many thing . I feel I was exhausted and stress .. I'm chatting with him . Tat feeling cum again . No one was support me . OMG~~~~



Today , In SJ period . I answered the teacher 's question . At the same moment , a guy he said ' haiz.. sien arh !! ' He dun like me for a long time . and he is assistance monitor . He alw slp.. gossip. and wont do homework .. He just a ' fake ' monitor! So, I complained to teacher and ask for replace the monitor. He is stingy and he protested bek . Finally , our ' 1st round ' was ended .

The '2nd round ' was happening in Physic lab . I was miss my class to Omega tuition centre , so I manage to cheat the teacher and back home earlier. I did it with my courage . So, I ask permission to toilet and phun tomy mom .den It was late , I quickly rush back to the lab . While I was outside the physic's lab , I heard sumone shout 'walk slowly arh !! fatty ' This was the guy said !! He call me fatty !! Oh my god ! I just 47KG , he call me fatty ! and i noe wat his means.. he was hoping I will be fall down later.. WTF !! I was mad tat time , Once I in the class.. I scold him ' wat u wan ? ' he said .. he wanna beat me.. Ok !! U wanna beat me ? I will accompany with u ply this games til the end! I nt a gal who easy to be buly !! Both of us argue in clas.. Mr. Looi .. our physic teacher ..he cant stop us so he ask us to find the disciplin teacher to settle . FINE ! it was gud to us .. They way we went to Pejabat , A guy ask for my phun num.. I gv my msn to him.. He .. haiz... wHEN I reach thr .. Mr.lee .. disciplin teacher settle this event . He is stand my side .. bcz I'm gal .. and I cry for .. I gt bully for a long time .. I also silence... how stupid on me !!!

so, finally .. the thing settle .. bt.. the other thing cum agian .. I ponteng sekolah for my tt.. But, I din go tt too.. my mom .. she was late .. she late !! this is her fault .. nt mine !! .. Tat's why I miss my tt agian !! I scold her and she scold bek too !! The second argue happened to me !! In the same day !! OH MY GOD!!

I keep crying inside my room.. i dun noe how to face all of this.. ok.. i shall clam down .. think carefully.. My EQ is low ! I really bad on control myself ! I phun to him.. bt .. he doesnt care me at all .. he just.. haiz.. I gt hurt .. and i noe .. No matter wat happened.. I also must face with myself.. he wont help n care me at all ..

I ask him on9 ..just now.. OMG~~~~ another argue hapenned in my life too !! I just a normal gal .nt a debate . I will tired . sad, exhausted too .. nobody un me .. He said .. haiz.. Ken is his fren.. best fren . He ask me dun mess up the situation ard.. hE .. wont care me ard.. Anyway , although heartbroken , I shall do my reviosn too... tmr I will have a test .. I shall do wat I wanna do .. my responsible ...

Stress .. I wont think much anymore.. I wont expect anything anymore.. If .. he wanna break up with me ,I will appreaciate .. At least .. I .. Have gud time with him .. b4 ..

OKAY .. tat thing is past.. okay ??Zhi YING.. U have ur fren.. many fren .. ok ? relax.. relax..

I wan Study more !!

Just did revision , My life is lame . Tuition, homework , skul and slp .. The only funny things for me is date with fren and Go on9 .. Hiaz.. I'm really stupid , Alw lazy to do REVISION . But !! Now I wan change ! I wan more hardwork and dedicated my msn's time to study ! I wont lazy anymore ..
Just feel sad to him. I wanna help him but I 'm nt effort to do . I .. just can buy sum thing for he eat and cook sumthing . Hmm.. just now I knew a boy.. Tommy .. He is a very nice boy.. but.. We din gt mush thing to chat . kekex..
Jen,, she din reply my comment , mayb she is busy .. haha.. Boon YONG. he must be plying dota now.. haiz... Jie ming is facing her try exam .. I .. support her arh !! Jie alw stand at ur side. ZhENG FENG.. A very 'fast' boy.. haha.. din chat fews day lorh .. ZHI Ying .. the gal same name with me .. cute and pretty gal .. She is facing Try too..
ARH ... TOO stress !!! I just hope I can tel sumone.. I'm missing him ... I love u.. Ken