Zhi Ying 15th Sep

Tuesday

Yesterday, I called u . Ken, in the morning.

Both of us were talked rudely with each other n we r gt hurt. Mayb u dun , Bt, I'm . I'm care watever u talk to me. I care u even more.

Midnite, I called again. I'm damn suffer in stomach ache . But, u scold me tat u feel i'm brothering u . I'm damn hurt .

U told me u saw my pm tat write abt me n jia hui. U r angry. U r damn mad, I noe bcz I'm noe abt u .

Afternoon, I bek alone with tears in my eye. I weared a big jacket n black in colour. Tat sky is blue n windly.It is a nice day, Bt , my mood is doest vry gud. He stare at me again. I hope he wil cum n told me he wil fetch me bek bt , he din ..

I was out of cool when i walked to home.I was crying n crying . I reach home den I drink sum soya . I was drinking it by crying . I was bathing with crying . I was falling aslp with crying.
I dun noe wat i'm crying for ? For the lost love ? For the hurt ? or jz I'm used to cry everytime I break up ?
I ask myself, n i gt the ans , I'm heathbroken badly .

He did let me fal in such situation twice. He lv me ? no.. he dun. Everybody is realize he is change since tat betray, He doesnt lv me very much nw. Hurt ...

I look at the phun, jz hoping ur msg n ur misscall. I'm waiting ur apology. But , I'm disappointed every second by check the phun. I'm hurt by my choice.I was choose jia hui , bt i let u choose in the last chance. U decide to be part of . This is the best way for us.

A couple without trust , without respect.

I'm hardly to survive without u , I hope i can tel jia hui all abt this. But, I'm nt dare to call him. I wont let my feeling effect others mood. Sry, Jia hui .. Jz gv me sumtime . I wil b heal it ..

Crying is doesnt stop. When I wake up at nite, it was abt 9 or sumthing. I read my novel.<> . I open the book n listening the emo song. My heart is bleeding n tears is follow dropping .

Hw hurt abt our choice. I barely to breath. I cnt stay calm. I'm surrender to everything. I was lying on the bed energyless. I was let my tears falling . I nearly decide to sucide, luckly, I was cnt move tat time.

10pm.I phunto jiahui. I told him abt it. He try to make me comfort. He talk abt his skul's stuff . He tel a lot of joke to me. I smile ... Since tat time. I'm feeling jis hui can replace ken . He can do it .

We chat for a long time. Finally, I'm feel tired n I went bed.The last person I was thinking is Jia hui . I told myself. I lv jia hui very much ! I cn live without ken .

The distance btw me n ken is getting far away . The wall is built up . It is thick n tall. We barely to walk togather,bt, we found we r nt match. I noe ur style . U too... But nw , we dun .

Tears dropping , heartbroken, suffering. I'm facing now. Hw abt u ? I saw u r happy . I hope u wil b forever.

N jia hui, everyone is praise u r gud. U r better than ken . I think so . Pls.. jz gv me sum times.I wil forget him . I will...

The guy I most lov in this world is ken , Bt, NOW IS GETTING change.


Today

I din go skul today, I sked to face him in skul . I sked lonely.
Ken , If u lv me , pls dun hurt me ...
Jia hui .. If u lv me , pls dun hurt me ...
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pls... I cnt stand of hurt ... I nt as strong as u think,,, I'm nt ...