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I have calm down myself and did the best to myself. U noe? wat is the feeling of hurt?wat is the feeling of sked..disspointment.and sked to everything.. I told myself dun think so much bt .. I lost control lst nite.

I slap myself ,beat.. and do watever thing i could be wake up from the suffering.. Bt .. I cant.I keep crying..and i dun noe wat i was doing... I call him .. for many many times.. bt ..wat he responed to me?He just ignore my call and I fell breathless .. I cant live without him ..i KEEP CALLING even i noe he wont ans mycall.. I keep crying even i noe he wont gv a damn on me.. I keep calling n callimg.. wish he will be heard my explain n my suffer..But, this is the 1st time, he ignore me.. He let me face the darkness myself.. Wat he promised me when we couple tat day., wat he promise me.. huh??Did he 4gt everything?did he really choose his fren? I dun noe. I dun wan this kind of thing happened..I have nobody now.. I alone now..

I sked n angry abt tat msg.. I feel afraid to him.. I feel afraid to my phun..I feel afraid to the ring.. I feel sked tat everything..I didn't noe wat I'm talking about..bt I noe I'm sad..I'm hurt.I..Am.. poor.. pity.. I ...dun noe y I'm crying..

While I saw the comment , I.. cnt stand ard.. I.. cry when i really cnt stand,, just one hours ago..I cnt stand.. I chat wih kelly bt i stil feel sad n sad.. I .. keep crying.. n crying,,I wan suicide .. I hope evrything will b fine.I .. dun noe.. I have no idea abt wat is going to me?

I start to sked of calling u .. U wont ans n i dun noe wat u r going to talk to me.. I.. really feel sad .. n y our relationship bcum like this..I just wan u to be more perfect and I wan sure my future will be more hapi .. so i force u to do this. n do tat.. bt..I found tat.. I was wrong..

We r different type of ppl.. we..nt match rite? Bt..After i told myself abt it.. I will keep crying.. I alw cry n cry ..I'm useless.. I cnt contrl myslef now..

eveything is out of control.. everything is chaging.. n me.. is standing under the sun.. the sun keep buring on me.. I keep suffer.. I keep suffer!!!

I must be clam .. I SHOULD BE CALM!! I must ... nt tired .I should go for the war.. The phun..I din expect ..even ans a call .. I will affraid like now.. I dun wan .. I dun wan this thing happened..I wan go to last time.. I wan form3.. I dun wan couple anymore..I sked .. I gt hurt.. I .. painful n dying..

Y u do it to me?Y??U have forget ur promise and leave me alone..N u not enough, U go fs n comment me ..Tat thing is too hurt .. U din think of me.. U ignore me..U did bad to me.. I hate u ..I really hate u.. Bt,,i love u too .. I did!!I did!!!