I wan Study more !!

Just did revision , My life is lame . Tuition, homework , skul and slp .. The only funny things for me is date with fren and Go on9 .. Hiaz.. I'm really stupid , Alw lazy to do REVISION . But !! Now I wan change ! I wan more hardwork and dedicated my msn's time to study ! I wont lazy anymore ..
Just feel sad to him. I wanna help him but I 'm nt effort to do . I .. just can buy sum thing for he eat and cook sumthing . Hmm.. just now I knew a boy.. Tommy .. He is a very nice boy.. but.. We din gt mush thing to chat . kekex..
Jen,, she din reply my comment , mayb she is busy .. haha.. Boon YONG. he must be plying dota now.. haiz... Jie ming is facing her try exam .. I .. support her arh !! Jie alw stand at ur side. ZhENG FENG.. A very 'fast' boy.. haha.. din chat fews day lorh .. ZHI Ying .. the gal same name with me .. cute and pretty gal .. She is facing Try too..
ARH ... TOO stress !!! I just hope I can tel sumone.. I'm missing him ... I love u.. Ken

Our story is nt end yet

Just now , I heard a song . This song is belong to us. he said .. this song is represent to us. I search the lyris and found tat . Tat is his mind, Tat lyris is wat he wanna said to me . I feel .. I was missunderstood n I really dun un him . Sry ..

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只要再給我多一點時間希望能給你全部的世界我無法改變 錯過的一切只能讓思念如夢般盤旋
只要再給我多一點時間想為你完成所有的心願太多的夢想 太多的諾言等待每夜慢慢實現
讓所有悲傷在日落後終結在日落後終結讓我陪你繼續未完的情節就算你在天邊就算你在地面兩顆真心像風箏連著一條線
讓所有快樂在日出前蔓延在日出前蔓延讓我看見你最幸福的笑顏雖然你在天邊雖然你在地面我們的愛要相約到永遠
啊～嗚～
只要再給我多一點時間多一點時間想為你完成所有的心願太多的夢想 太多的諾言等待每夜慢慢實現 啊～
讓所有悲傷在日落後終結在日落後終結讓我陪你繼續未完的情節就算你在天邊就算你在地面兩顆真心像風箏連著一條線
讓所有快樂在日出前蔓延在日出前蔓延讓我看見你最幸福的笑顏雖然你在天邊雖然你在地面我們的愛要相約到永遠
讓所有快樂在日出前蔓延讓我看見你最幸福的笑顏雖然你在天邊雖然你在地面我們的愛要相約到永遠我們的愛要相約到永遠

U think like this , u tot like this . But , I just keep on blame u .. I sry for I dun un my bf .. I'm sry . But , u did wrong too .. U r too fiece.. U keep on blame me .. I cnat stand .. sumtimes.. dun u noe , when u do like tat to me.. i sad tooo.... gt hurt too ... ??

Hair show~~ (Picha)

I have my hair cut in Phillip Sum . Thr is a nice salon and the staff is nice too.

I have my new hair and my style will changed also . Cool .. now ..

Sexy feel .. I think it is nice

Bf WANTED !!

My rock style !

( Zhi Ying new style , quite rock )



I knew a special fren currently . She is Jen . She is friendly , CHATFUL ..I like her so much , We knew in fs , and we chat just fews times . But , she did let me feel I gt my best fren same age with me in fs too.. Nt bad to me .. lolx ..

I knew how fs is working . How the person change frem fren to best fren and then stranger . But , I hope this time wil different from the past . I hope our frenship forever...

New hair

I have my new hair ! Tat is a sigal of I have my new whole life ! I becume more thin and pretty ard . I cutted my in Phillip sum IN this evening after I end my tt. Hmm.. Wat can I said , thr is quite expensive but it is worth ! I love my hair very much and my new picha. kekex...
He fall in the hard situation again . his mother abandone him now . Mayb this time is serius but I hope he can pass it as soon as posible . Haiz.. I'm worring abt his future . I wanna help him but I just cant do anything . I dun noe !
He so clever and smart , he must can handle all of this . I trust him and support him . I love u ...

I'm pretending cruel now

This morning in the Chemistry lad , as usual , we chat . I means , We talk with mock to each other . I told him abt I called Yong B last nite bcz asking abt his -ex 's fs. Just like tat . Okay , the quarrel was began. We quarell and finally , I tot the winner is me bt , I got wat he felt in this time conversation .
I told him abt I will go to find tat gal and let her noe abt our thing. I 'm making reprisals now . I told him abt my plan. First ,I edit his fs and wrote abt many sweet thing abt us.. Then, I view her fs on purpose .After this ,I will let her noe abt when she was couple with him , he didnt love her at all . I told him abt this , bt wat his response is , ' I can said , tat profile is nt my edit .. is chong ji yien edit ! ' He talk with pround and smile to me. I bowl down my head , and I said ' oorh.. hehe' Yea.. wat can I reapond ? I dun noe.. But , I noe , actually he doesnt love me rite .. I fel it long time and Everytime I ask him , he just cheat at me .
I feel shame on myself , I dun noe wat to do and I just get hurt from him . I noe tat, he is unwilling to show out wat kind of relationship of us and he just nt treat me as his gf .
I should noe wat position is mine and I should clear with my action . I should delete all thing , I should distinguish wat should I do . I smart this time . I gave up . I gave up . But , it is nt represent I 'm surrender.Nope! I just do wat I wanna do now . I let him happy ,I wont let him feel I 'm like a fly alw disturb him.. Nope ! I'm nt a rubbish ! Sry.. I 'm a smart gal . I wont let others feel I'm bothering around u !
From the day we fine again , I did make a preparetion in my mind . Once I take up this love , sumday , I wil put down with happy . I did make it ! So, if we break this time , I must nt like last time .. fool around and stupid .. mess myself up . I can handle my life very well. I can ..
I shall mature to view and absorb all the things tat happen in my surrounding . I wont foolish like last time. Today , I lost u . Tommorrow , I get a better . I will ..

mad and sad

Just now , I go his profile and seach everything abt his ex . I dun noe y wan to do all of this but I just try to find a way to relax and release my mind ! I do very angry bcz he is changed now . He wont sayang me anymore. Wat can I do . I .. alw tum him bt it is nt works anymore .
When he is angry , he just cool and silence to me . No matter wat I said to him , how i tum him. he just like tat. We go for breakfast this morning , it is nt a gud time for us. I apology for wat I said . Mayb I wrong or I'm wrong . But, U did angry to me and hurt me so much u noe.. I really tired in this kind of relationship . I wont break with u bcz I really cant forget and put down u .
I just hope ,when I unhappy ,I have sumone be with me . I just hope I have someone who can alw cheer me up and let me smile . I just hope i have sumone who very sayang me. I had it !! but .. it is past now. Now.. I din.. I just be the sumone who alw let ppl scold and angry .
Wat can I do ?? Mayb I should put down form the begining .Mayb Tat letter should not let u read . As wat I said.. once the glass crush , thr has a rift thr.
u said u wan control me and stay higher than me. BUT, Love is nt talking abt it. I knew now . u do wanna sayang ur gf and just love her. I noe u love me very much and me too. But, u did a lot and hurt me sumtimes..
I fear of u , I hope I can in msn 4ever bcz I have Lz pui me. He is doing wat u did last time. From time to time , mayb he wil replace u.He wont angry me and he alw say yes to me. Other side, Everytime u heard sumthing u dun like u just throw away everything and silence to me.. Omg.. I hate out with u !!
Zhi Ying, it is time to think properly.. ken or lz.. I .. dun noe how to choose bt I really treat lz as my fren .. my best fren . For ken , I just feel nth to him.. I noe I will pass my life like last time.. alone .. sum day in the future.. I nt dare to face alone and I just hope I have sumone pui.. tat is enough to me ...I just hope I can call sumone den chat .. tat is enough.. I dun noe ..wat my mind thinking now.. love him.. ??? Hahah.. mayb now I just likes him.. I dun noe..

Best frens

A week has past. Many thing happened . I realize tat , many of my fren was facing ‘ fren’s prob ‘ in the past week . and I just feel I really luckly and I have a lot of fren be with me . Now , I wan list out all my fren ..
Kelly , She is my best fren num 1 . yup, we are fren for many yers . Since kindergarden ,we are fren and now we r best fren . She is a such gud fren and she is very care her fren . Tat’s true. she alw hiding her hard in frotn of her fren . Kelly , actually u no nid feel hurt abt how they treat u . U said they nt ur best fren , they just ur ‘fren’ . I noe wat feeling u r. U cried in class bcz of this such thing . Nvm .. I will alw be with u , and I promise I wont treat u like them .Ok ? Gambateh in ur studies ..
Then , Yen ching is the 2nd best fren I wanna talk abt . U r a such calm and clever gal . U really noe wat u wan and u can annalysis wat r going on . U help me a lot in my trouble time . But , U alw hide up urself and when u cry and sad .. I also dun noe how to Tum u and u let me worry many times ! U have ur bf who loves u very much . Hmm.. envy u tim .. u gt a kinda best bf and I din have.. Wish ur love will through the end .. And plzz… dun just share hapiness with us . talk abt sumthing u dislike when u in bad mood.. watever.. best fren 4ever..
Hm.. The next is Lychee lorh . She is kinda xi xin . she like to be a kid and she like to be protect . Cute nerh u .. Lychee .. I alw chat with yen ching and neglect u . Sry yer.. I promise .. nxt time u feel beh song.. U tel me and I must chat with u .. okay ? hehexx..
Hmm.. my lady’s best fren is list out .. for now.. My buddy is cuming out.
Fatty !! everybidy also noe he is my best fren . He helps me a lots and he do care me . When i break with ken , fatty is the 1st guy who came and care me. This action let me feel .. he also very care me gah .. I do have a lots of happy time with him.. In the basketball match .. dating.. warh .. he is a kinda humor ..
and.. Mr leng zai .. Yup I talking abt u now.. U must very beh song I put u at the last . Aiyor.. we too fren jor.. so .. hope u dun mind . We meet in a very special time and I do like u very much . U really very same like my bf bt.. I love him more than i like u . sry .. I cant accept u .. we can b best fren rite.. (U must say ok . bcz u so sayang me ) U r the guy who most sayang me in this world. okay ??haha.. we din chat for 2 days jor.. gt miss u tim.. how lerh ?? lolx..
I hope me and my best frens will keep our frenship 4ever.. Although we will quarrel , fight , hurt, and beh song sumtimes . But.. tat is nth to us. we will be with togather and have a happy fiture togather,,
I alw dream sumday , we have a high tea in Black canyom and we take our children .we share our experiemnt and hapiness.. Myab we will have this kind of life .. Nope !! We must have it !! rite ?

Just had a dinner with him

Last night , we went to Elvis , a restaurant tat he work . Happy and sad thr... we went thr 4 an hour bt even we wne ta dinner we quarrel too. I dun noe wat happened to us ?
Okey, he said he was sick and he order many fried food and snake . I'm going on diet ! I told him many times, I wont eat !! I'm on diet ! But, at the end of the dinner he blame me and scold me ! wat is going now ! U scold me !! Fuck u!! I have no idea y he gonna scold me ? does his brain sumthing wrong ?I really hate out with him ! After this, He opology to me , he said sry .. dear.. 4gv me .. Hey .. dun u think tat u r over ard ! Now, U alw blame me and talk this talk tat.. and u never sayang me and u just keep on blame me!
Mayb tat is my problem , Bt .. out with u really nt happy .. especially we go sum restuarant . U noe, u let me feel u very .. rude . U just , just act like a kampung boy . U let me unwilling sit with u ! Last time, U wont like tat. Ur fren had influence u. so , I will nt go out with u anymore. U even dun noe wat is table manner . U really like haiz... I noe this is hurt u, Bt i have to said so.. U really.. haiz..
U find a lots of excuse to cover ur false and u wont .. never go to fixed ur problem. U wont go tt bcz of u sick. Bt, u go for a badmintoon with fren . I really dun noe how to help u ! U r damn useless..
Plz.. change urself , if not.. nobody will gv u chance anymore. Ur mom.. she is .. haiz.. i ard gv up u ... I wont push u anymore.. just let uself regret in future and.. I wil nt think we have a beautiful future anymore. Bcz.. a lazy guy wil nt have a happy future.. we wont future.. U make me very disspoint to u .. really. ..

Love is romance

Ken , the guy I love a year .. We in couple relatinship for one year . A long journey we did past . We realize each other and we do love each others .
It is stil like yesterday, the day we couple and the day we gave a chance to ourself to lead a hapy life . I do love u very much ..Do u ?
My heart to you is given: Oh, do give yours to me? Well, lock them up together, And throw away the key. U r belong to me 4ever . I love u . ken .
We past many hard situation and we support each others when one of us in a hard state. Tat’s a really strong sprit when we support . Oh, I was affraid all the time u leave me . I was fear one day u will abandone me . Oh~ this feeling is suck!
U said I was change . Since I becum more thin , U said I was change. Although I chagne more perfect and more beauty, althoguh life is different now , Love is nt change in our mind. The Seat of VIP in my heart are u . The guy I’m care ,love and worry r u . Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.
How abt u ? How abt … me in ur heart ? I realize I wont trust u anymore . I sked I will feel disspoint to u again . I fear I wil gt hurt without a warning . The 1st time , I feel u r untrustful . Sry , ken . I ‘m really sry .
I will be with u to pass ur time 4ever and I wil change to a better temper. I change for u .. Since I noe u, I chagne for u. I keep fit for u , I love english for u , I cut my hair for u . Bt , the matter tat I wont change is .. I wont change my heart for forget u .. I love u ..ken

I worry abt u

I’m really worry abt him . Just chatting with him and I realize tat , he has a lot of trouble. I cant help him , Just hope can share his sadness. Sumthing bad was always going with him. Y .. Y his life is such tat unfair !!
Mayb this is his problem, mayb he doesnt appreciate his own thing , Bt.. I dun agree the god punish him with those cruel method . I really feel unfair to him !!
I noe he fears all the time and he choose to 4gt it.. dun think abt it. In this way , he wil feel better and nt so stress.. I advise him many time, go solve it and have a clear ans.. Bt..He doesnt care at all.U alw escape from the trouble .. I really dun noe how to help u.
Ur life is so unique. When the gud thing cuming,.. U really have a lots of happy .. Bt.. the gud moment is no longer.. when u bad luck . everything cum consecutive .. I..just.. sry abt it ..
Hope.. U will be fine .. soon … Hope u will stay ‘bside’ ur mom.. Hope.. U no nid to go to England.. Hope everything will gud…
Watever , I will take care u alw.. I will…